A Dharmic way

Full circle?

2011-09-18T14:35:00.002+01:00

I have been questioning lately my motives for doing the things I do all day long. It has brought me here. I feel as though I have come full circle in my understanding of myself and the world around me. I now desire to play this grand game of life with a focus on my strengths and ambitions and recognition of my failures, resentments, regrets, weaknesses and mistakes.

I have come to see that the path of truth, integrity and wholeness is a singular path in that it cannot be shared with another in the same way we might share food. These concepts are not describing anything physical. The sharing is of another realm possibly imperceptible to what we call our senses.

The focus of my words today is one of self-awareness. I seek to make whole my divided self and simultaneously make whole the world around me. I owe a huge amount of my understanding to people like David Icke, Michael Tsarion, Bill Hicks and many more countless souls whose names I cannot remember whose words have helped me be inspired, guided and re-assured that a deep and sublime creative and destructive force is at work throughout the cosmos that is omnipotent and omnipresent.

I now see these people as a part of the global psyche aching to be free of the constraints of the self-imposed slavery to collectivist mentalities and misinformed, fear based paradigms we have subjected it to.

Constantly I try to change things around me. I began this blog with a burning desire to change something, anything that could contribute to a revival from what I saw as decay in humanity. However many of my words carried all manner of negative emotion. I see that now.

Once I learned more about the Leviathan of parties interested in nothing more than encouraging me to foster and sow in myself a hatred of myself and humanity I began to see a solution.

The more I focus the light of change inside the more I am rewarded by what I call Great Mother in magical moments of my life. This time that I live in is amazing. The very fact that I am alive against so many odds is amazing.

I feel that the human race is on the brink of turmoil on the scale that dwarfs anything previously experienced by living generations. I also believe that the each of us on this planet has a chance to contribute to what is to come. The big question is what do we choose to contribute?

Solution time......

2009-09-02T20:23:00.002+01:00

I am dealing with many seeming distractions on my journey. It is difficult to express my thoughts but I feel it crucial that I do at a time when it is so easy to become confused and not know where to focus my energy next. All my life I now comprehend that the most present source of distraction is my own mind.....

That said, I also comprehend that my mind thinks in words. David Icke likes to call it 'the mind'. It became apparent to me a while ago that we spell words with letters, symbols.

Words are, of course, the most powerful drug used by mankind.

Rudyard Kipling (1865-1936)

I use them in my interaction with others and myself. They are powerful. A wide vocabulary I now see can be the difference between freedom and slavery, hope and hopelessness. I mentioned in the last post that I was born and will die free. The key to this lies in my vocabulary. If I want a fulfilling experience I can use fulfilling words in y mind for motivation. If I want I can choose to be depressed or angry or sad or lacking something.

Realizing that I can choose how to feel was both a liberating and frightening experience. Up until that point I had spent a large amount of time pointing outside to find the sources of my happiness and satisfaction and the causes of my depression. I am empowered to do this through the blameful language used by all sources of entertainment and information.

Everyone blames everyone else for all of the problems. Many of us are so busy blaming either ourselves or our friends or the system or the money masters at the Bank of England to see what is really going on. We are being urged on every level to identify with our ego. While all the time we contribute or project this ego on a national and global level.

The ego projects a sense of 'otherness' conceptually in our experience. I believe a false sense of self to be the source of much dis-ease within the psyche of man. It is perpetuated by the proliferation of products, entertainment and the promotion of egotistical careers that come with rewards of silly sums of money.

Celebrity is a good example. Eastenders is another. But in truth there is no other, no opponent. We are all one. What TPTB want us to believe is that we are powerless and dangerous individuals who cannot be trusted with the governance of ourselves. Sadly, at this time this may be true. But that doesn't mean that in the next moment it cannot all be changed.

Who ever tries to incite revolution or question the system on Eastenders or Corrie or hollyoaks?When is dissent ever truly portrayed in the media?

When you begin to learn the words that TPTB use against you, you can begin to break their spell over you. That is all it is. The system, the idea of arbitrary power of divine providence wielded by a plutocratic corporation filling the pockets of the internationalists at the expense of the lives of British soldiers and Afghan children is an illusion, a spell. We can take this power back. Stop everything. Start over. Be the annoying peasant more and more.

But it has to begin inside. Ghandi said be the change you want to see in the world. If you tell yourself in your mind that your not free you won't be. Simple. Who else in this world can claim authority over you unless you have committed a crime?

No-one! Vocabulary and it's ability to lift us from our perceived slavery is the difference between the status qou remaining and the illusion being splintered and broken.

The only constant in this life is change. When we embrace it fully we can see that words change things. These words are changing your experience right now. The letters I have posted are made up of words.

I have to now filter my language on the inside before I express it and it is an immensely taxing mental exercise. But the rewards are sometimes beyond measure. I can get tangled in a mess and not know what to think, which voice or suggestion or idea to trust or listen to. I can feel as if I am going round and round in circles, going nowhere. Addressing these issues within myself is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Staying balanced emotionally and mentally while having no source of consistent work or income and having to derive money from ever changing situations and unforeseen events that can change every plan irrevocably are now frequent occurrences in my life. But I cannot revoke my consent to be governed and still claim benefit. Not if I want to remain in honour.

How I have managed to juggle all this stuff in my mind and still maintain any meaningful relationship I don't know. But I am changing. Everything is changing. All the time. And although I have felt frightened and depressed, suicidal and angry, something still lives in me. Something that keeps me going.

He who questions well learns well. He who distinguishes well learns well.

With any of these corporations and systems of supposed authority I like to exercise my inalienable right to ask questions. Questions I know that they do not want to answer. I formulate these questions based on what I have learned from trawling page after page of documents and watching enlightening and joyful videos made by people like Rob Menard. But the true key is I feel along the lines of what these guys are doing. I was overjoyed to see these guys on the streets of London exercising their right to criticise the government in as much of a polite, friendly, loving and peaceful manner as they can. I'll leave you with their footage......

First and foremost I think we need to remember that Everything is ok!

The Human Being

2009-09-02T09:34:00.008+01:00

In order to explain my actions with the so-called powers that be, I first need to explain who I am. The accepted paradigm at present is that only certain beings on this planet are conscious. This is explained currently by the presence of a nervous system.

Science classifies those organisms without a nervous system as not conscious. Matter, the building blocks of these organisms and all of reality as we know it, is taught in school to be physical. At the atomic scale particles have physical boundaries and specific locations. But, they are not conscious.

Yet you only need to encounter chaos theory and the "measurement problem" in physics and quantum mechanics to see that the world is not like this. It cannot be observed independently of itself. What does this really mean?

Well, I realized at the age of 14, looking through a telescope, that the building blocks of my body were essentially made of the same building blocks as the stars and other galaxies that I was observing. In other words, I had to be a part of the universe. It occurred to me then that, somehow, the universe had developed a way of looking at or observing itself.

I learned about memory, history and mathematics and watched the news and knew that something was wrong. How is it that in a universe that must itself be conscious to be able to observe itself presidents can be assassinated and the majority starve while the few live like gods?

How can this be? I ruled out an omnipresent and omnipotent force that had been explained to me as God. This was because I could not reconcile it with what I had read in science. How can an all loving entity choose to make some of his children suffer and others prosper? Some live long and some die horrible premature deaths.

Boy has this changed. Over the past 3 years, after much research and philosophy, I have come to the following conclusion;

I am God

Many will stop reading here as they will more than likely, as Peter Russell says, completely misunderstand every word of that sentence. How can I explain this briefly?

Has it ever occurred to you that on a planet of nearly 7 billion souls, all with different personalities and genetic makeups, a plethora of different languages and cultures, there is only one word in the English speaking countries that the majority use to refer to themselves. I.

I believe we are all referring to the same "I". What I am proposing (and it is nothing new) is that we are all a part of the same "one" that some call God. Therefore we all say "I" because we are all an integral part of the same universe observing itself subjectively. Each soul and each event in reality or creation is a manifestation of the observer's.

I have faith that each of us chose to come here to experience this reality like we run towards a playground as children, struggling to get free of mom's safe grasp to experience the sensations of excitement and joy. But this experience doesn't only contain joy. I can manifest murder, torture, terrorism, hatred, racism, bigotry and many other things.

Instead of realizing our true potentials, we are convinced as children, therefore as a society as we children mature, that this idea is simply laughable. That all matter is unconscious and by some warped mutation we developed consciousness. That life is not the fulfillment of an infinite potential. That there is only one way to live and that is at the mercy of the few.

I have come to learn that I am living in a very small box. A prison for my mind. The key to the cell door isn't held by some other authority. I hold it. I've always held it and now I see this I begin to step out of the box and truly realise how small a box it was and how narrow the bandwidth of my experience really is.

I have been on a complete roller coaster over the past few months. I feel sometimes as if I am losing my mind, but somehow I find the strength to carry on in a world that is so obviously corrupt that it stinks. Something is changing, my whole life is changing. With this understanding and that which I have come to learn about the law, using a NI number to get a job is the last thing I desire. I refuse to take part in a system that is designed intentionally to empower the few at the expense of the rest. The term evolution is nothing more that the justification of the systematic slaughter and suffering that the double-speakers call globalisation. The survival of the fittest. How many times have you heard this and the old classic "well, it's a dog eat dog world out there son". I am not a dog. You, unless you are the littlest hobo using the Internet to find your way home and have stumbled across this confusing page, are not a dog.

We are all God. It is the almost absolute ignorance of this that drives the world in the direction that it does. We are systematically taught that we have no power other than the ability to have a successful career. It just so happens that to do this we must follow seemingly senseless and arbitrarily applied laws and rules. We struggle every day to pay the rent, the mortgage, the utilities, fill the petrol tank, feed the kids, run the business, obey the laws, millions of them.

Ignorance of the law is apparently no excuse. So I started bloody reading about it. And on my journey I learned some amazing things.

It seems that the government, duplicitous and deceitful as it is, has come up with an ingenious way to convince us that we are all free while systematically and ruthlessly it enslaves us.

"I believe that liberty is the only genuinely valuable thing that men have invented, at least in the field of government, in a thousand years. I believe that it is better to be free than to be not free, even when the former is dangerous and the latter safe. I believe that the finest qualities of man can flourish only in free air – that progress made under the shadow of the policeman's club is false progress, and of no permanent value. I believe that any man who takes the liberty of another into his keeping is bound to become a tyrant, and that any man who yields up his liberty, in however slight the measure, is bound to become a slave

H.L.Mencken

Menken in some of his works referred to plutocracy. With the knowledge that the wealth gap between the richest and the poorest of this country is phenomenal, please read this page, particularly the section that mentions the City of London.

The rich run the world and the rest supply the energy, labour, undertake all of the stress and strain that is required to support a tyrannical system of socioeconomic control.

It has been this way for at least 2 thousand years. Compounded interest is an invention of the money masters that keeps us in eternal debt unless we are willing to sell them our souls and provide ours and the labour of our children and their children's children as collateral because they simply don't trust our ability to repay what we owe them.

Don't believe me? Watch this.

or this. Feel free to come to your own conclusions. But when viewed alongside other films like Loose change, Zeitgeist, Zeitgeist Addendum and many of Michael Tsarion and Jordan Maxwell's presentations it makes simple business sense to me that a global economic crash serves the agenda entirely. My almost schizogenic feelings of depression, futility of action, hunger, emotional suffering and sincere fear of the future also serve the agenda perfectly. I am to be kept in a black hole of a depressing and fearful existence so that I simply do not have the power or the ability to challenge the status quot.

What is the status quot? It is my opinion, that the simple and very logical process of usury has wrecked this country. We are currently an estate held in trust by the crown as insolvent. There are two types of people in commerce, Creditor and Debtor. Which are you? Which of these describes your family members? friends? work colleagues? It is important that you realise that you are being deceived.

You are not a hopeless, useless "only Human" being. You are divine, all knowing and all powerful. It is the people that have the real power. And thanks to people like this guy, we can start to learn how to begin to take our power back. There is much more that we can achieve than a hangover every weekend and debts that pile up infinitely.

It is an old idea but I have come to learn that there has only ever been one struggle along mankind's long and winding road. It is that if the individual in his own struggle to find his way. Beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the sons of god.

Ask yourself........

Who are the peacemakers?

Is it the pre-emptive policy makers waging war against sovereign nations, militarily and economically through sanctions, leading to the death and suffering of countless millions across the globe in the guise of a supranational all loving one world government?

Or is it the few who dare to challenge the status quot and deny charges of "heresy!" (which has evolved into "traitor!"and even "Truther"), "He's mad!" and follows his/her own truth?

Infinite love is my truth, everything else is illusion.

The "power" that the council has to demand any money from you for no verifiable services tendered is an illusion.

The "power" that ANY CORPORATION has to demand performance or money from you is an illusion. Unless you have made an informed choice to sign a contract.

The basis of a contract is agreement. Informed agreement. If you choose not to read a contract and sign it, bear in mind the maxim in law

"let he who will be deceived, be deceived."

If you are ignorant enough to pay someone vast sums of your labour under a liability that they cannot show the origin of - that's up to you.

The most important thing I have learned recently is that I was born free and that I will die free. This has never and will never change. Because the basis of de jure government is what?

Consent.

If they do not have our consent we live in the plutocracy that Menckel spoke of. If they do have our consent yet ignore our wishes we live in the plutocracy that Menckel spoke of.

It is therefore my quite logical conclusion that we live in the plutocracy Menckel speaks of.

In law the powers that be have a name. The clue is in the term "powers that be". The term implies that they are permanent and all powerful. It is true that up until now these powers have been permanent and all powerful. But all along this has been nothing but an elaborate ruse.

Te term de facto from wiki means......"in practice but not necessarily ordained by law".

In other words, government does not derive it's power lawfully from the people. It does however have a "legal" mandate from the people.

This mandate originates in the acceptance by the people in the form of our acquiescence to being governed from up on high by the crown. The figurehead of the organisation that we call the "queen" is nothing more than a distraction from the real power wielded by the Crown in The ancient City of London. The Crown is a corporation sole whose directors are invisible. This Corporation has enacted Statute after Statute for the past 300 years that gradually merged the English Common Law with Mercantile and Civil administrations of the merchant classes and roman aristocracy respectfully. This is a process that is hurtling towards its inevitable conclusion, should we fail to stop it.

The same conclusion that lead to the "fall" of the Roman empire. I do not believe for a moment that the Roman Empire ever fell. Nor did the Egyptian Dynasties. They simply, every now and then, just like today, changed their company name.

The RE became the Holy Roman Empire. Through the advancement of the same old, all powerful ruling classes in their expansion of their laws, these families conquered Europe (and later the world when they became the British Empire) with a combination of Theological and economic deceit, reinforced by the biggest military conquistador machine invented in our history.

This has become what many people now refer to as the New World Order. This is a term they are not afraid of using anymore. I have been aware of this term for years now and it is now being used, rendering as true in my mind all of the "conspiracy theories" that I have been reading of, by many a modern "politician" when describing "their" "vision" of a peaceful and prosperous world.

Watch this..................

Invisible empire trailer

Be aware. They are not talking about YOUR PROSPERITY they are talking about THEIRS. A prosperity that continues at the expense of every man woman and child on this planet that is not unfortunately "illuminated" enough to bear the responsibility of true power. How ironic that the same people who claim we do not have the power to run our own affairs collectively are the same people who get together in secret meetings under secret oaths that Kennedy warned of, regardless of their perceived political allegiances, to undermine those same efforts of the people they claim to represent?

The only thing that matters these days is the same that has always mattered. The struggle of the people to overcome the tyranny in their own hearts that leads them to wield an

almighty, absolute power over those who simply wish to live their own lives free of any arbitrary or unnecessary control.

It is my ambition to play my part in bringing this age old struggle of the freedom of the individual from the clutches of power and monarchical or aristocratic or plutocratic dictatorship to an end.

But where does a man begin in an adversarial system to make progress in his life while his efforts are systematically subverted by deception, misinformation and above all, private control of his currency based on usury and fraud?

This crime against humanity being perpetrated everywhere there has been established a central bank is made possible by the now defunct Mainstream media. It is also THE PRIME CAUSE of ALL SOCIOECONOMIC PROBLEMS. The people whose wages are paid for by the same people who own the banking system will never tell you what the news is. They will never tell you that the entire way of life that we call democracy is an illusion put their by people who want you to falsely believe that you are free so that the days of revolution are over and they can get on with their rightful business of enslaving us all.

There is a solution to this..........but first I think that I will let you ponder over the problem!

Peace and love to all.........

Reply from the bailiff........

2009-06-23T20:01:00.005+01:00

These lot actually did reply to my letter, obviously signed by a computer and a standard manufactured letter.......making no reference to my reply to them....

The next day I got another letter with different stationary and a much more friendly manner.......

As you can see, no threats or any helpful information regarding my requests. Nothing. Neither is it signed by anyone, I don't think anyone wants to take responsibility for this stuff- as is to be expected from those who claim limited liability.

So I responded with this letter....

Paul Ford

*********

**********

EQUITA CERTIFICATED BAILIFFS

5th floor

7 Waterloo Street

Birmingham

B2 5PQ

31st March 2009

NOTICE

Dear Bailiff Manager,

I can confirm receipt of your REMINDER NOTICE dated 23/03/2009. This should be read as NOTICE that I am discharging your REMINDER NOTICE by seeking further clarification. For ease of reference I have included the following definitions of terms used in this notice;

In this document

“your company” is defined as EQUITA CERTIFICATED BAILIFFS.

“ the council” is defined as BIRMINGHAM CITY COUNCIL.

“my letters or correspondence” is defined as either my letter to your company , dated 7th March 2009 or any future correspondence.

“party” is defined as either your company or the council.

Could you please, for further clarification of the origin and liability for this debt, define the actual meanings in your notice, of the following phrase/s;

“Unpaid Council Tax “, “our previous applications for payment” , “Our removal teams will be in you area in the coming week”, “and will be looking to seize goods”, “Further substantial costs will be added to your debt once this action has been commenced”, “avoid this course of action”.

For the record I have received no document entitled “application for payment”. Could you please provide the dates for your previous correspondences for ease of reference?

I am unable to deal in any way appropriately or properly with ANY of your requests should you continue to ignore my letters or correspondence. It is my understanding that I have no contract binding me with your company or the council and have received no information to the contrary from either party.

As this remains undisputed by either party this notice includes notice that I intend to seek all available remedy to me to resolve this issue and I understand that failure by either party to lawfully object to said understandings stated in this document within 7 days of this notice will constitute tacit agreement of these understandings and statements by these parties that may form the basis of any further action by me to have any current or future court proceedings in this matter be dismissed.

I reserve the right not to contract in any way further with your company should you continue to ignore my correspondence or refuse to refer to it in detail. I do not give you permission to contact me by telephone or to make any legal determination about me, including your use of title in addressing me as Mr. From this date onwards I will only open mail from your company addressed to Paul, of the family Ford, as I have no commercial interest or duty to your company.

This notice is signed and posted by registered mail on the 31st March 2009.

Thank you again for your time and consideration in these matters,

Kind regards,

Paul, of the family: Ford.

P.S Your letter dated 24th March 2009 does not match this company name and is not signed by a representative of EQUITA so will be ignored as correspondence. For the record, I REQUESTED THIS INFORMATION BY RETURN OF POST, AS SUCH MY CORRESPONDENCE HAS BEEN DISHONORED AS I SHOULD HAVE RECIEVED A REPLY TO MY LETTER DATED 7TH MARCH BY THE 17TH MARCH 2009. It is my understanding that your company is a third-party interloper to which I have NO CONTRACTUAL OBLIGATION WHATSOEVER. ANY FUTURE CORRESPONDENCE THAT DOES NOT CONTAIN DETAILS THAT I HAVE REQUESTED OR AN ACTUAL, VERIFIABLE STATEMENT OF TRUTH PERTAINING TO THE MATTER WILL BE IGNORED.

Happy reading folks........

to this day I have returned any mail that is manufactured in nature addressed to "Mr P Ford" or "MR P FORD" and none of their previous threats have manifested. Feel free to draw your own conclusions...

I will explain in detail why I have chosen to pursue this matter in this way next time, but for now......

Peace and Love people........

Chess quotes.....

2009-06-19T11:00:00.002+01:00

I like to play chess as it is a game of patience and strategy.
Look at what Thomas Huxley said of the game.....it gives you a peek at what these guys (bankers, politicians, money masters...)have been doing for millenia.......

“The chessboard is the world, the pieces are the phenomena of the
Universe, the rules of the game are what we call the laws of Nature
and the player on the other side is hidden from us”

Peace and love to you folks....

Long time no post!!!

2009-06-11T11:01:00.007+01:00

Hello brothers and sisters!!!

I've been a busy man recently....learning and possibly RE-learning about who I am. I feel the need to specify here that no-one reading this should take any of the following as advice as this is something I cannot claim that I am qualified to give.

The following passages contain some documents that may / may not help you in your daily struggle to stay afloat in a climate that seems to be full of job losses after job losses, immense devaluation of property world wide and a laughably entitled "credit crunch" now repeated everywhere as fact.

I hate to rock your boat folks but in case you haven't figured it out yet, you, me, all of us are being deceived on a huge scale. Deceived and blatantly robbed every day of the value of our labor. I repeat - EVERY DAY.

The politicians are out there busy busy trying to "save us" all.

Do you believe their nonsense anymore? Because I don't. I never did. I'm about to reveal exactly why you don't have to anymore.

As hard as it may be to believe and as hard as it may be to even think about, you are not who you think you are.

Most people have legal titles these days in the form of Mr, Miss, Mrs, followed by a FIRST and LAST NAME.

I began on the latest part of my life's journey with a company called EQUITA bailiffs.

I can understand many people reading bailiffs as "BAILIFFS?!!!!aaarrrrggghhh!!!!".

They sent me a letter after I completely ignored the magistrate's "summons". Here it is.........

You may be able to enlarge the image for your own consideration. It will help at this juncture to illustrate why I decided to respond and ask them some questions. With a new energy I approached them politely with the following letter;

P Ford

********

EQUITA CERTIFICATED BAILIFFS

5th floor

7 Waterloo Street

Birmingham

B2 5PQ

7th March 2009

Dear Bailiff Manager,

I write regarding my receipt today of your letter dated 03/03/2009. Thank you for informing me of these matters as I have not received any communication from Birmingham City Council for some time. I previously offered to pay arrears that I had accumulated through settlement of an injury claim that is as yet, still unresolved.

In response to your letter, my situation previously stated in correspondence of being unemployed and claiming no benefit remains the same. However, I would like to accept your offer of the opportunity to discharge this debt as the administrator of the account, providing the following conditions can be met for the process of verification of the source of the debt;

Could you please send me copies of the following?

· The original bill that the arrears relate to, signed by a representative of the council.

· The original two-party contract I signed with Birmingham City Council binding me in agreement to pay council tax.

· A copy of the written notice that I should have received from Birmingham City Council 14 days prior to the liability order being granted by the Magistrate.

· The liability order that has been granted by the Magistrate.

I would also like clarification of the actual meanings of the following words or phrases in your letter;

“Liability order”, “unpaid amount”, “the sum of £790.31”,“Failure to discharge this debt”

I look forward to receiving this information by return of post so that I may discharge this debt as the administrator by all means available to me within the power of the law.

Thank you greatly for your time and consideration,

Kind regards,

P Ford

I hope that you may discern a few principles from this. This is a letter of conditional acceptance.
The commerce game resembles the old games of War that the ruling classes engaged in daily in which honour was paramount. The same applies today but the swords and horses have been replaced by pen and paper. This is why I believe that I learned the phrase..."The pen is mightier than the sword"....

I'll attempt to upload a letter a day so that you may all see the language that these people use against me evolve as I return their serve on the "court" of commerce.....

I could not understand, until I came across this information, how such people justify their actions. How do they sleep at night(horlicks maybe?)? I was convinced it was some sort of legitimized extortion racket - £790? My first questions were....

What for?

By what Authority?

Then I found this film............

Bursting Bubbles of Government Deception

Feel free to make your own judgements about what I have written and make comments that you think are pertinent to the facts.

But to me the facts are very simple. Someone has alleged that my person has defaulted in an obligation, making me liable for a debt. I did a bit of research and found from the government's own websites that Birmingham City Council simply prints a computer created list that specifies which addresses are on the system that have no record of recent payment. They file a claim with the Court, the magistrate issues a summons based in this computer printout.

It is important to understand the difference between a computer and a human being. It is my belief that this "debt" that they allege I am responsible for was never mine. Because the decision to issue a summons came from a judgement made by a computer that has been instructed by an unknown party to make a list based on a statutory obligation. Again, not created by actions of mine.

You may say....."yeh but they were your actions that created the debt because you didn't pay.."

But think about it....you would be making the first and most important mistake that we all make in matters that resemble this in any way that relate to the law.

I learned a very important saying many years ago.....assumption is the mother of all f*** ups.

The assumption that I simply have no choice and that I have to pay is a massive one. This assumption may also apply to your bank loans, mortgages, car payments (tax, license, insurance etc)

The PTB are more than happy for us totally ignorant folk to go around making the assumptions that we just have to do as we are told.............do yourself a favour and stop making these assumptions......this is a good place to begin, with your own thoughts and the vast number of assumptions we make in our daily lives........

More letters and explanations later.......

Happy contemplating folks......

2008-11-12T12:05:00.003Z

Inflationary Holocaust. 'Legendary investor Jim Rogers warned during a CNBC interview this morning that global central banks are creating the environment for an inflationary holocaust by their ceaseless overprinting of currency, a measure that isn't even successful in stabilizing the stock market.Rogers said that the only solution to the market crisis was to let failing banks and speculators go bankrupt and stop pumping endless amounts of liquidity into the system, labeling it outrageous that responsible investors and taxpayers are being made to bail out crooks on Wall Street."The way to solve this problem is to let people go bankrupt," Rogers stressed, "All of this pumping money into the system is not going to save it - see what the market is saying, it's saying we don't buy that, let people go bankrupt," he added."Then you will hit bottom and then you start over. The people who are sound will take over the assets from the people who aren't sound and we will start over. This is the way the world has worked for a few thousand years," said Rogers.Rogers warned that the reliance on governments printing money would not aid a recovery and would only lead to the problem becoming worse in the future."We're setting the stage for when we come out of this of a massive inflation holocaust," he said.Rogers said that excesses of credit and people becoming over-leveraged meant that they would now have to take some pain." Never before in world history were people able to buy houses with no money down, many people bought four or five houses with no money down and no job and then they did it with cars and student loans and credit card loans, you just think we say well that's too bad we're gonna start over nobody loses his job, be realistic," said Rogers.Rogers said that the G7 leaders, who are meeting this weekend, should "go down to the bar, have a beer and leave the rest of us alone, let the people who are sound succeed and let the other people fail.""What I'm afraid of is they're gonna keep doing what they've been doing - which the market hates, you can see the market hates it - because this is going to unleash rampant inflation around the world, rampant confusion in the currency markets and you're gonna have currencies gyrating all over the world," said Rogers, repeating that the central bankers were unleashing an "inflationary holocaust".A CNBC expert then expressed his confusion at Rogers' argument that overprinting of currency caused hyper inflation, seemingly displaying less grasp of basic economic cause and effect principles than a 5-year-old would.Rogers again made the point, "When you print gigantic amounts of money and you flood the world with money, throughout history that has led to inflation.

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MPs seek to censor the media

2008-11-11T10:42:00.000Z

Exclusive by Kim Sengupta
Monday, 10 November 2008

Britain's security agencies and police would be given unprecedented and legally binding powers to ban the media from reporting matters of national security, under proposals being discussed in Whitehall.

The Intelligence and Security Committee, the parliamentary watchdog of the intelligence and security agencies which has a cross-party membership from both Houses, wants to press ministers to introduce legislation that would prevent news outlets from reporting stories deemed by the Government to be against the interests of national security.

The committee also wants to censor reporting of police operations that are deemed to have implications for national security. The ISC is to recommend in its next report, out at the end of the year, that a commission be set up to look into its plans, according to senior Whitehall sources.

The ISC holds huge clout within Whitehall. It receives secret briefings from MI5, MI6 and GCHQ and is highly influential in forming government policy. Kim Howells, a respected former Foreign Office minister, was recently appointed its chairman. Under the existing voluntary code of conduct, known as the DA-Notice system, the Government can request that the media does not report a story. However, the committee's members are particularly worried about leaks, which, they believe, could derail investigations and the reporting of which needs to be banned by legislation.

Civil liberties groups say these restrictions would be "very dangerous" and "damaging for public accountability". They also point out that censoring journalists when the leaks come from officials is unjustified.

But the committee, in its last annual report, has already signalled its intention to press for changes. It states: "The current system for handling national security information through DA-Notices and the [intelligence and security] Agencies' relationship with the media more generally, is not working as effectively as it might and this is putting lives at risk." According to senior Whitehall sources the ISC is likely to advocate tighter controls on the DA-Notice system – formerly known as D-Notice – which operates in co-operation and consultation between the Government and the media.

The committee has focused on one particular case to highlight its concern: an Islamist plot to kidnap and murder a British serviceman in 2007, during which reporters were tipped off about the imminent arrest of suspects in Birmingham, a security operation known as "Gamble". The staff in the office of the then home secretary, John Reid, and the local police were among those accused of being responsible – charges they denied. An investigation by Scotland Yard failed to find the source of the leak.

The then director general of MI5, Dame Eliza Manningham-Buller, was among those who complained to the ISC. "We were very angry, but it is not clear who we should be angry with, that most of the story of the arrests in Op Gamble were in the media very, very fast ... So the case was potentially jeopardised by the exposure of what the story was. My officers and the police were jeopardised by them being on operations when the story broke. The strategy of the police for interrogating those arrested was blown out of the water, and my staff felt pretty depressed ... that this has happened."

The ISC report said the DA-Notice system "provides advice and guidance to the media about defence and counter-terrorism information, whilst the system is voluntary, has no legal authority, and the final responsibility for deciding whether or not to publish rests solely with the editor or publisher concerned. The system has been effective in the past. However, the Cabinet Secretary told us ... this is no longer the case: 'I think we have problems now.'"

The human rights lawyer Louise Christian said: "This would be a very dangerous development. We need media scrutiny for public accountability. We can see this from the example, for instance, of the PhD student in Nottingham who was banged up for six days without charge because he downloaded something from the internet for his thesis. The only reason this came to light was because of the media attention to the case."

A spokesman for the human rights group Liberty said: "There is a difficult balance between protecting integrity and keeping the public properly informed. Any extension of the DA-Notice scheme requires a more open parliamentary debate."

DA-Notice: a gagging by consent

The D-Notice system was set up in 1912 when the War Office (the Ministry of Defence in its previous incarnation) began issuing censorship orders to newspapers on stories involving national security.

In 1993 it became known as a DA-Notice with four senior civil servants, with an eminent military figure as secretary, and 13 members nominated by the media to form the Defence Press and Broadcasting Advisory Committee.

Contrary to popular conception DA-Notices are a request and not legally enforceable. Civil servants fear making the agreement legally binding would lead to hostility from the media. There would be apprehension among journalists about new restrictions, as the committee has in recent times been robust in resisting pressure from the Government to send DA-Notices if it thinks the motives are political. At present most DA-Notices are issued regarding military missions, anti-terrorist operations at home and espionage.

History repeats...............

2008-11-11T10:27:00.000Z

For several years now, senior officials of the Bush administration including the President and the Vice President have intimated, in no certain terms, that there will be "a Second 9/11".

Quotations from presidential speeches and official documents abound. America is threatened:

"The near-term attacks ... will either rival or exceed the 9/11 attacks... And it's pretty clear that the nation's capital and New York city would be on any list..." (Former DHS Secretary Tom Ridge, December 2003)

"You ask, 'Is it serious?' Yes, you bet your life. People don't do that unless it's a serious situation." (Former Defense Secretary Donald Rumsfeld, December 2003)

"... Credible reporting indicates that Al Qaeda is moving forward with its plans to carry out a large-scale attack in the United States in an effort to disrupt our democratic process... (Former DHS Secretary Tom Ridge, 8 July 2004)

"The enemy that struck on 9/11 is weakened and fractured yet it is still lethal and planning to hit us again." (Vice President Dick Cheney, 7 January 2006)

"We are still a nation at risk. Part of our strategy, of course, is to stay on the offense against terrorists who would do us harm. In other words, it is important to defeat them overseas so we never have to face them here. Nevertheless, we recognize that we've got to be fully prepared here at the homeland." (President George W. Bush February 8, 2006)

"Our main enemy is al Qaeda and its affiliates. Their allies choose their victims indiscriminately. They murder the innocent to advance a focused and clear ideology. They seek to establish a radical Islamic caliphate, so they can impose a brutal new order on unwilling people, much as Nazis and communists sought to do in the last century. This enemy will accept no compromise with the civilized world.... (President George W. Bush, CENTCOM Coalition Conference, May 1, 2007)

"[W]e now have capabilities in science and technology that raise the very realistic possibility that a small group of terrorists could kill not only thousands of people, as they did on September 11th, but hundreds of thousands of people. And that has changed the dimension of the threat we face." (Michael Chertoff, Homeland Security Secretary, Yale University, April 7, 2008.

We're fighting a war on terror because the enemy attacked us first, and hit us hard. ... Al Qaeda's leadership has said they have the right to "kill four million Americans,... For nearly six years now, the United States has been able to defeat their attempts to attack us here at home. Nobody can guarantee that we won't be hit again. ... (Vice President Dick Cheney, United States Military Academy Commencement, West Point, New York, May 26, 2008)

[emphasis added]

All these "authoritative" statements point in chorus in the same direction: The enemy will strike again!

"Second 9/11": Historical Background

The presumption of a Second 9/11 has become an integral part of US military doctrine. America is under attack. The US military must respond preemptively.

In the immediate wake of the invasion of Iraq (April 2003), various national security measures were put in place focusing explicitly on the eventuality of a second attack on America. In fact these procedures were launched simultaneously with the first stage of war plans directed against Iran in May 2003 under Operation Theater Iran Near Term (TIRANNT). (See Michel Chossudovsky, "Theater Iran Near Term" (TIRANNT), Global Research, February 21, 2007).

The Role of a "Massive Casualty Producing Event"

Former CENTCOM Commander, General Tommy Franks, in an magazine interview in December 2003, had outlined a scenario of what he described as "a massive casualty producing event" on American soil [a Second 9/11. Implied in General Franks statement was the notion and belief that civilian deaths were necessary to raise awareness and muster public support for the "global war on terrorism":

"[A] terrorist, massive, casualty-producing event [will occur] somewhere in the Western world - it may be in the United States of America - that causes our population to question our own Constitution and to begin to militarize our country in order to avoid a repeat of another mass, casualty-producing event." (General Tommy Franks Interview, Cigar Aficionado, December 2003)

Franks was obliquely alluding to a "Second 9/11" terrorist attack, which could be used to galvanize US public opinion in support of martial law.

General Tommy Franks

The "terrorist massive casualty-producing event" was presented by General Franks as a crucial political turning point. The resulting crisis and social turmoil resulting from the civilian casualties would facilitate a major shift in US political, social and institutional structures, leading to the suspension of constitutional government. (See Michel Chossudovsky, Bush Directive for a "Catastrophic Emergency" in America: Building a Justification for Waging War on Iran? Global Research, June 24, 2007)

Operation Northwoods

The concept of "massive casualty producing event" is part of military planning. In 1962, the Joint Chiefs of Staff had envisaged a secret plan entitled "Operation Northwoods", to deliberately trigger civilian casualties among the Cuban community in Miami (i.e. "staging the assassination of Cubans living in the US") to justify an invasion of Cuba:

"We could blow up a U.S. ship in Guantanamo Bay and blame Cuba," "We could develop a Communist Cuban terror campaign in the Miami area, in other Florida cities and even in Washington" "casualty lists in U.S. newspapers would cause a helpful wave of national indignation." (See the declassified Top Secret 1962 document titled "Justification for U.S. Military Intervention in Cuba" (See Operation Northwoods at http://www.globalresearch.ca/articles/NOR111A.html).

Operation Northwoods was submitted to President Kennedy. The project was not carried out.

To consult the Northwoods Archive click here

Military Doctrine

General Franks was not giving a personal opinion regarding the role of civilian deaths. He was describing a central feature of a covert military-inteligence operation going back to Operation Northwoods.

The triggering of civilian deaths in the Homeland is used as an instrument of war propaganda. The objective is to turn realities upside down. The agressor nation is being attacked. The USA is a victim of war by the "State sponsors" of "Islamic terrorism", when in reality it is the perpetrator of a large scale theater war in the Middle East.

The entire "Global War on Terrorism" construct is consistent with the logic of Operation Northwoods: Civilian casualties in America resulting from the September 11 attacks were used as "a war pretext incident" to galvanize public support for a military intervention in Afghanstan and Iraq.

As of 2005, the presumption of a "Second 9/11" had become an integral part of military planning.

Statements emanating from the White House, the Pentagon and the Department of Homeland Security point to a growing consensus on the necessity and inevitability of a second terrorist attack on a major urban area in the US.

In the month following the July 2005 London bombings, Vice President Cheney is reported to have instructed US Strategic Command (USSTRATCOM) to draw up a contingency plan "to be employed in response to another 9/11-type terrorist attack on the United States". The "contingency plan" uses the pretext of a "Second 9/11" to prepare for a major military operation against Iran. (Philip Giraldi, Attack on Iran: Pre-emptive Nuclear War , The American Conservative, 2 August 2005)

In April 2006, the Pentagon, under the helm of Donald Rumsfeld, launched a far-reaching military plan to "fight terrorism" around the World, with a view to retaliating in the case of a second major terrorist attack on America.

The presumption of the Pentagon project was that an "Attack on America" by an "outside enemy" would result in the loss of American lives, which in turn would be used to justify US military actions in the Middle East war theater. The covert support of US intelligence to Islamic terrorist organizations (the "outside enemy") slated to carry out the attacks, was of course not mentioned.

Various "scenarios" of a Second 9/11 attack on the Homeland were envisaged. According to the Pentagon a second attack on America, would serve an important policy objective.

The three Pentagon documents consisted of an overall "campaign plan" plus two "subordinate plans". The second "subordinate plan" explicitly focused on the possibility of a "Second 9/11" and how a second major attack on American soil might provide "an opportunity" to extend the US led war in the Middle East into new frontiers:

"[It] sets out how the military can both disrupt and respond to another major terrorist strike on the United States. It includes lengthy annexes that offer a menu of options for the military to retaliate quickly against specific terrorist groups, individuals or state sponsors depending on who is believed to be behind an attack. Another attack could create both a justification and an opportunity that is lacking today to retaliate against some known targets, according to current and former defense officials familiar with the plan. (Washington Post, 23 April 2006, emphasis added)

Martial Law

Since 2003, various procedures have been adopted regarding the enactment of Martial Law in the case of a so-called "National Catastrophic Emergency".

Under martial law, the military would take over several functions of civilian government including justice and law enforcement.

Initiatives in the area of Homeland Security outlined the precise circumstances under which martial law could be declared in the case of a second 9/11.

In May 2007, a major presidential National Security Directive was issued (National Security and Homeland Security Presidential Directive NSPD 51/HSPD 20) which explicitly envisaged the possibility of a Second 9/11:

NSPD 51 is tailor-made to fit the premises of both the Pentagon's 2006 "Anti-terrorist Plan" as well Vice President Cheney's 2005 "Contingency Plan". (See Michel Chossudovsky, Bush Directive for a "Catastrophic Emergency" in America: Building a Justification for Waging War on Iran?, Global Research, June 24, 2007). The directive establishes procedures for "Continuity of Government" (COG) in the case of a "Catastrophic Emergency". The latter is defined in NSPD 51/HSPD 20, as

"any incident, regardless of location, that results in extraordinary levels of mass casualties, damage, or disruption severely affecting the U.S. population, infrastructure, environment, economy, or government functions."

NSPD 51 is predicated on the notion that America is under attack and that the "Catastrophic Emergency" would take the form of a terror attack on a major urban area.

"Continuity of Government," or "COG," is defined in NSPD 51 as "a coordinated effort within the Federal Government's executive branch to ensure that National Essential Functions continue to be performed during a Catastrophic Emergency."

More recently, in May 2008, another National Security Presidential Directive was put forth by the White House entitled Biometrics for Identification and Screening to Enhance National Security (NSPD 59, HSPD 24).

NSPD59 complements NSPD 51. The new directive is not limited to KSTs, which in Homeland Security jargon stands for "Known and Suspected Terrorists", it includes various categories of domestic terrorists, the presumption being that these domestic groups are working hand in glove with the Islamists.

"The ability to positively identify those individuals who may do harm to Americans and the Nation is crucial to protecting the Nation. Since September 11, 2001, agencies have made considerable progress in securing the Nation through the integration, maintenance, and sharing of information used to identify persons who may pose a threat to national security." (NSPD 59)

NSPD 59 goes far beyond the issue of biometric identification, it recommends the collection and storage of "associated biographic" information, meaning information on the private lives of US citizens, in minute detail, all of which will be "accomplished within the law" (For further details see Michel Chossudovsky, "Big Brother" Presidential Directive: "Biometrics for Identification and Screening to Enhance National Security", Global Research, June 2008).

NSPD is explicitly directed against American citizens, who are now categorized as potential terrorists.

While "conspiracy theorists" have been accused of cogitating regarding the possibility of a Second 9/11, most of the insinuations emanate from official US sources including the White House, the Pentagon and Homeland Security.

The fact that a "massive casualty producing events" could be used as part of a US foreign policy agenda is diabolical. The official statements are grotesque.

Bipartisan Consensus in the Presidential Election Campaign: "Al Qaeda will Strike Again"

While the presidential election campaign has avoided the issue of a Second 9/11, both candidates have acknowledged the dangers of a second attack. Both Barack Obama and John McCain have underscored their resolve to protect America against Al Qaeda:

[Question: Who's the enemy?] "Al Qaeda, the Taliban, a whole host of networks that are bent on attacking America, who have a distorted ideology, who have perverted the faith of Islam, and so we have to go after them." (Barack Obama in response to Bill O'Reilly, Fox News, September 5, 2008

"We have dealt a serious blow to al Qaeda in recent years. But they are not defeated, and they'll strike us again if they can." (John McCain, Acceptance Speech, September 5, 2008)

Mainstream Media Report: "The Need" for a Second 9/11

While the Washington Post leaked the substance of the Pentagon's classified documents pertaining to the "opportunity" of a Second 9/11, the issue has not been the object of mainstream commentary or analysis.

It is worth noting, however, that in an August 2007 Fox News interview, "A Second 9/11" was heralded as a means to create awareness and unite Americans against the enemy.

Broadcast on Fox News, Columnist Stu Bykofsky claimed that America "needs" a new 9/11 to unite the American people, because they have "forgotten" who the enemy is. He also claimed that "there will be another 9/11", and Fox New Anchorman John Gibson concurred. Civilian casualties would contribute to uniting the country and creating awareness:

"it’s going to take a lot of dead people to wake America up" said John Gibson. [emphasis added]

While Stu Bykofsky's controversial article in the Philadelphia Daily News (August 9, 2007) was, at the time, considered as outlandish, what Bykovsky was actually saying was not very different from the Pentagon's ploy (modeled on Operation Northwoods) concerning the role of "massive casualty producing events" in triggering "a useful wave of indignation", thereby galvanizing unbending public support for a military/ national security agenda.

History in the making?

2008-11-04T11:54:00.006Z

I'm nervous about today. The last time I said this the Russian army was preparing to respond to Georgian genocide in south Ossetia. This is a much bigger deal than the Olympics though, the US presidential "election". Considering many are ignorant of the symbolism of the flag in use in the US, it is easy to understand the importance of this selection in the context of economic consequences. Not in terms policy decisions of the president but in the offices of the men behind the curtain.

It was Benjamin Disraeli, two-time British PM in the 1870's and 80's, a good friend of Queen Victoria's who said "There is something behind the throne greater than the king himself". He was serious!!

This is the presence of the men behind the curtain. They have been there in many guises over many a millennia, it seems. JFK spoke of this conspiracy on April 27th 1961. This is what he had to say;

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=_WSGwnz7XpY&feature=related

Is the President really the most powerful man on earth?

I have read in the past few days that there is s strong possibility that Barack Obama is NOT ELIGIBLE to be President of the USA. He is allegedly Kenyan born and has had a fortunate ruling from a federal district court decision against one Phillip J. Berg's allegation that Obama cannot produce an acceptable copy of his birth certificate to show he was definitely born in Hawaii. The Montgomery County lawyer has appealed to the Supreme court to have his petetion to stop the election upheld. This hearing was scheduled for Oct 30th but I have been able to find no news whatsoever on the latest development in that case.

Read about it here.....http://www.infowars.com/?p=5558

Why is this important? If it continues to go unaddressed by the media in general, most people will have no idea what is going on when a national emergency is declared by Bush over the newly - elected President's ineligibility for office. This is a perfect scenario for Bush to enact his newly-dictatorial power.

Today will be interesting in America........

Long time no speak........

2008-10-23T10:59:00.009+01:00

I think, that I am finally prepared to do what I have wanted to do with this blog since it's inception. I am always trying to follow a path that will enable my enlightenment. I have come to understand that I must first know the quality of this enlightenment that I seek. For I have found that it is not an enlightening in terms of the brightness of the soul, but rather a process of becoming lighter. The heavy burden of feelings, regrets, thoughts, guilt - the spirit as a whole is burdened with a severely heavy weight. This lifts from me continually as I slowly release my desperate grip on my physical notion of existence.

This is important. To answer the last question i posed in the last post I made in June, No. Not in terms of my existence within the physical realm. For when I refer to myself as I, who am I really talking about? Understand that when you speak, even think the word "I", you are making a reference mentally to yourself, from outside of your self. Think about it.

This notion of identifying with yourself from outside of yourself is the first stage of your creation or maintenance of the ego. It is very subtle, yet completely entrenched part of your own mental construct. In our current, dominant belief system, this is entirely necessary as we attempt to interact with the world around us. Everyday life demands that we identify ourselves by our name, occupation, beliefs, pastimes, etc. This is necessary for our entire existence in everyday life. It is the very basis of trade, industry, human interaction, commerce, sport, the list goes on and on. I have always known that something was missing in my pursuit of happiness. That was until I realised that any ideal or ambition is a state of mind.

Me and Sally recently watched with my mom, a wonderful lecture by parahamsa nithyananda called "you are emptiness". In which he explains through the following sutra of shiva's that our constant need to define ourselves, to fill our hearts and minds and homes with nice ideas and shiny, nice belongings, IS the source of suffering. We constantly aim to fill ourselves with definition because we are emptiness. He asks us to understand the following sutra;

As the ocean waves with water,
and fire with flame,
the universal waves with us

He says that much healing can come from identifying with this principle. You are emptiness, part of the cosmic ocean. A wave in the cosmic ocean. You rise in one life, peak and fall back to the ocean. Thousands and thousands of times, in different parts of the cosmic ocean, at different heights, in different ways - but you are still - ocean. Your separation from this ocean, or more accurately, your attempt, to be separate from this ocean is the source of all suffering.

Parahamsa likens us to a wave on the ocean, that at first, understands that it is part of the ocean. As he grows up and rises, he begins to think that he is separate from the ocean. This separation must induce a sense of fear, as it begins to worry about the safety of his wave. He collects the pebbles from the beach and the mud from the sea and the sand and attempts to build a wall of possessions and ideas and beliefs that insure him against the falling of the wave. He seeks security, so he may stand as a wave forever. But as he tries harder to build and build the nature of the ocean destroys what he has built as he falls back to the cosmic ocean and dies. I think it is a beautifully revealing insight into the mind of an ascended master. I think it apt, as we are truly approaching a cosmic shift in our understanding of who we are, what we are doing and where we are going. The old ideals of racism, nationalism, religion, capitalism, socialism - all the -ism's, are beginning not to work. I genuinely believe that we are to witness in our lifetime something that will change the history of this planet forever. The acceptance and promotion of humanist values.

These values will transcend ancient notions of good and evil. Material or immaterial, real or imaginary - all the boundaries that we currently spend our whole life telling ourselves to stay within and letting other people dictate to us. This is the obvious enemy of the powers that be. But David Icke is right. When one person is denied the right to express his opinion, we all are, if one child loses it's leg in Baghdad - all our children do. Understand this if you understand nothing else in your life. There is no separation between races, religions, nations, individuals, societies. They are all fictions dictated to you by your masters in government and peers in our society and members of our family. Simple. Hard to understand or believe, I know, but later i will deal with belief.

Do we not leave this life empty handed? With only our memories and love and feelings and thoughts? Then why do we attempt to insure ourselves against this?
Recently, over the past 18 months, I have attempted to find the source of this mind, my experience. Do I just interact and respond to the world around me from the point of view of a physical human, at the mercy of the chaotic world that I live in? With only religion or secular materialism to choose from? Or can it be explained and understood a different way? I realise now that I have always been looking for this. It is my holy grail. And I have found it in my mind's ability to make associations. And to understand why and how I make them. I have discovered that the key to unraveling my thoughts into a coherent and purely cognitive state is through the very language i speak and the connections/differences between the possible associations I could make and the ones I have made already.

Sally's brother, Lee, once tried to ask me what the goal or purpose or object I am attempting to contact when i meditate. At least that is my assumption because he never got to finish the question. the answer is me. My true self. The real source of all knowledge. All possibility.

Some days it is too difficult to contemplate anything but the nagging depression in my mind. Like everything, my depressions runs in cycles. Nothing is permanent. Guilt, fear, embarrassment, are all concoctions of the ego that are constantly re-enforced by celebrity, news, society, myth and religion. Sometimes though, I feel all of this thinking and understanding is for nothing. For it only exacerbates my loneliness. If my life is an illusion why do I stay here? Why do I undergo such mental and emotional torture when I could be anyone, anything, anywhere that I choose?

I have changed completely in he past few years. I wish everyone else would. This would then all be over. I know I must see Martin this week. I feel the weight growing upon me. a dark cloud forms quickly some days. Some days i just cannot help Sally fight her own fears and assumptions. Some days I'm just not much good to anyone. I think much of this is my resentment for the rest of the world's inability to see these things. And so the misery of this "life" that some in my childhood would so pessimistically call "it"continues.

Existence

2008-06-29T16:20:00.004+01:00

With all of the issues I like to think about, the most intriguing to me is my own existence. I find it astonishing that I am even here - let alone that I am lucky to have a wonderful girlfriend and a loving family. It may not seem like it from the outside, but I believe us both to be on the verge of carving a true and just existence out of the corrupt society that we live in. One that may cause offense to some and dismay to others - but to those who truly love and respect us our motives and desires for being brave enough to do it will become clear in time. Bob Dylan said that if you wanna live outside the law, you have to be honest.

What is this "I" that "I" speak of? I don't think it is God. But I don't believe it to be my self because I believe the majority are anything but themselves. I genuinely think that I walk amongst a whole society that is slowly going insane - more than it is already. The speed of this growth of insanity is growing, accelerating. I am not the only one becoming clear on the society I live in. Whole droves of people are awaking around the world to a point of view that the entire planet is a living organic system. That it is impossible to isolate oneself in any way absolutely from this system. The more we attempt to do this, the more the system violently reacts and slowly self destructs. This destruction we experience as stress, disease, war, poverty, environmental disaster and many other conditions. Whether we like to think about it in this country or not, what I have just described is experienced daily by the overwhelming majority of the people on this planet. I am lucky enough to be able to study and understand my ability to help to change this. Something that the majority of people in the world do not have the power to do.

The science is in. The latest conclusions I have read and watched from the physics and cosmology community is that the distance we observe between each and every particle in existence is an illusion. A stunning discovery if you ask me. What am I on about?

Well, this is the news: Absolutely everything in this universe can be found within one small part of it. The whole is reflected in the parts. In this context, the universe can be held in the palm of your hand. It already is. You see, the Universe is holographic. This means, amongst many things, that no matter how small you cut the universe up through observation and measurement, the infinite possibilities contained in the part you are viewing mirror those of the entire system - and vice versa.
Astonishing and confusing, I know. This is the very basis of physics. If you can understand how the particles that make up galaxies are made and behave, then you can make accurate predictions about clouds - as they have the same basic structure and ingredients. What follows this comes from the Unified field theory in part - something that Einstein aspired to but never reached. The theory concludes that the entire universe is intricately and infinitely interconnected through a field that can only be described as consciousness. Thus it is consciousness that lies at the heart of every action, intention, thought, emotion, being, particle, mountain and river. The entire system is alive. Alive with what? A universal intelligence far beyond what we can comprehend thinking only in the third dimension.

This system can be observed through the behavior of fractals. Fractals, in my view, are the mathematical description of the holographic nature of the universe that I am talking about. This universe's basic nature is absolute potential - pure potentiality. It is this potential that is the field, nature and mind of god. The universal intelligence. And the more we try to diverge from it the more suffering we experience. It is important to note that on the level of universal intelligence everything is allowed to happen. Nothing can be interpreted as good or bad. Therefore through our continual changing of the hologram that we are a part of through thought, intention and action we are all contributing positively and negatively to the very universe and reality that we experience as life. Does this mean that everything I do and think changes the world that I see? Of course it does! When you instruct your body to take you to a place where you can obtain physical money you consciously change your environment through what the layman would call moving. Do you not, after a period of time, end up looking at a cash point? The fact that this happens automatically and daily should not negate from it's sublime divinity. The movement originated in thought but manifested as physical reality! Despite the time delay - which I'll try and cover later, because time is important.

The fact that you can access an ATM is not usually viewed as a divine act. But I think it is. If you follow this line of thought to its conclusion it causes even bigger questions. What has this got to do with my existence? Read on.....

The ancients understood the idea that the nature of time is cyclical. But time is merely a consideration. Is it not then the conscious experience that performs this consideration not also cyclical itself? The maya thought so. The long count calendar tracked exactly this - consciousness. Though these cycles begin and end, each cycle has no physical distinction from the other. Ages do not begin and end with physical separation. The separation is one of a mental consideration for our numerical, linear benefit. One of these cycles is what our calendars measure. Is time then not really just another word for mind? As it is just a consideration of experience? Further, I contend that time cannot be gauged without movement. So time requires movement to be measured. We have seen earlier that everything originates in the mind - including movement.

Now, we think of time as having 3 stages; past, present and future. Although these stages are spoken of and accepted as fact, they are anything but. Like time itself, they are considerations. You consider that one event has already happened, so it is in the past. Something happening right now, like you reading these words, is considered as the present and the words you have not read as the future. But this system is in constant flux. The words you are reading, even as you read them are future words that have become the present, yet as you read them they become the past. The march of this "time" is constant and quick, second, by second. Moment by moment you think you are experiencing a present that was the future , is now the present , or is it now the past? But where do you draw the line? Can you?

I do not think that you can distinguish between the two. For one very good reason. Absolutely everything you experience you experience in the present. Not the past or the future. The future becomes the present that you experience. You don't ever experience the future as the future because the very consideration of it separates it from the present by definition. Likewise, you make references to the past having already experienced it in the present. So we experience all three in the present but refer to them as past and future as a consideration. Consideration requires the use of the mind. The mind is like a software program that works abstractly. I like to think of abstractly meaning imaginary. It is easier to conceive in your mind that the mind is really your imagination combined with your memories of your experience. I once read that your brain processes 4 billion pieces of information every second and that we are only aware of around 200 of these. A minuscule amount. The mind is doing things we struggle to comprehend. It manages your experience second by second, moment by moment. Making new memories, new plans, processing random thoughts and feelings. It is unimaginably complex and sophisticated. Is my mind the "I"? The centre of my existence?

The BBC tells porkie pies.....

2008-06-28T15:37:00.003+01:00

Recently I watched the BBC news coverage of the meeting of the top 6 energy companies with a commons select committee. The questions put to them concerned the sky high price rises in domestic fuel that follows huge rises last year. The rep for eon stated that fuel prices will continue to go up but if the companies that supplied the fuel were not "vertically integrated" the prices would already be much higher. The journalist doing the voice over explained this term as "industry jargon for producing and selling energy".

Something about the term caught my attention and surely enough, when I put the term into wikipedia it explained the term as follows:

In microeconomics and management, the term vertical integration describes a style of management control. Vertically integrated companies are united through a hierarchy and share a common owner. Usually each member of the hierarchy produces a different product or service, and the products combine to satisfy a common need. It is contrasted with horizontal integration. Vertical integration is one method of avoiding the hold-up problem. A monopoly produced through vertical integration is called a vertical monopoly, although it might be more appropriate to speak of this as some form of cartel.

Now is it me or does this explanation make more sense in the context of of the subject at hand? or does the BBC know something we don't? If their explanation is correct then the other reasons I have heard reported don't make sense. They (the BBC) surmised that the rise in the wholesale price of imported fuel is being passed on to domestic customers. Yet if these companies produce the energy they sell then these cost increases would not apply because they create it themselves.
I found this truly bizarre. Other people might think that the fact that I pay so much attention to this stuff the bizarre thing - but it astounds me that the BBC are either inept or lazy in their research and understanding of finance or they lie. If it is the former then we should not watch it if it gives us the wrong information. But if it is the latter it is a perfect example of the way that the people are perpetually misled. Either way it doesn't say much for the standard of information we receive.

Why would they go to the trouble though?

Well, if the people in this country have relatives who are choosing between freezing or starving the wiki definition is upsetting to say the least. Upsetting because if all the millions of people in
"fuel poverty" clearly understood that the top 6 energy companies were "vertically integrated"
or "all sharing a common owner" these millions would revolt in their droves - in the understanding that a single board of directors has control over the majority of the market. They are eliminating competition and potential for new companies offering lower tarriffs. The domination of the market means they have the sole ability to set as high a price as they see fit. If the people struggling knew this there would be uproar.

I wonder who this common owner is?

How influential they are? How much political muscle they can buy and wield? Their ability to dominate the market and drive us all insane trying to make a living while paying through the roof for the most basic of products is made possible by companies like the BBC. When you are misled into thinking that the energy crisis and disastrous costs of living are too complicated to fix quickly you lose hope. You feel anger and fear for your ability to provide for your family and plan for the future.

This is important. If you think that its all very complicated you either lose interest or feel too undereducated to follow the story and you turn over. You ignore the issue and watch something else. If you ignore the issue you surrender your power to change the situation. How? Well how do you change a situation that you cannot understand?

Then you learn the true cause of inflation and it makes sense. The people at the top of this society we live in do not care about us. They do not rise early in the morning to ensure the blossoming of mankind and the attainment of our collective ambitions. Your money is not worth what you think it is. Have a look if you don't believe me. Look it up, do some homework and start finding out how this society works. Cos it isn't how you think it is.

The truth is that the central banking system only serves one real purpose. It creates a transfer, a transfer of wealth from one end of the market to the other. Are you the beneficiary of all this wealth being transferred? If not then you can rest assured that your end of the system is the system that the wealth is being transferred FROM.

I know what people might think. What does this guy know about economics? Isn't it obscenely complicated? the realm of the highly educated and noble? The answer is no.

I'll elaborate later I think, as it is a whole different subject!

So why does the BBC tell porkies? Put simply, the elite that own the media networks and broadcasters are the same people that own the companies that supply the fuel. The same companies that own the banking system. The men behind the curtain.

We can't have questions being asked about the companies who supply our energy for it is merely the tip of the iceberg. The reality of the fuel prices would enrage hundreds of thousands if it was public knowledge and something would have to be done. Wouldn't you be angry if you realised that the very thing that prevents the fulfillment of your ambitions is the very means given to you to do it? Surely it cannot be true?

Inner machinations

2008-06-28T13:47:00.004+01:00

There was a time when I used to think that the best way to get on in life was to get a job. People take you seriously when you've got a job. they ask questions and easily relate to your experiences. Your confidence in your ability to be self-sufficient rockets and anything you want to buy is theoretically within reach - especially if you play the lottery! But how is your confidence doing at the moment? When no-one wants to lend you any money and the price of everything is going through the roof? Your wages just don't buy you what you need any more and the wonderful plans you might have are on hold indefinitely. I wonder who people think is responsible for it? Gordon Brown? Greedy businesses or God? Technically, God is responsible for everything but you know what I mean!

There was a time that I said yes chef, no chef - won't happen again chef! I continued to believe that if I just did what people expected of me and toed the line then everything would work out just fine. I laughed at and feared my mom owning tarot cards and believed in the system. As long as I worked hard day after day and kept my head down and my mouth shut I would win the game and live happily ever after.

Years later it seems that I was absolutely and entirely mistaken. It's hard to deal with. To have an idea consolidating in my mind that everything I thought I knew for sure shifts on sands that are made of the constantly changing will and actions of the entire earth as a system is disturbing in what it implies. At first I feel small and powerless - like the system makes me feel. But after a bit of careful consideration i've decided that it aint so bad after all. To find out I have been lied to all of my life and coerced through a system of negative suggestion to do exactly what I should not be doing made me angry at first. Overwhelmingly angry. "if only I knew that before" used to be my favorite put-down for myself. The number of times I have put myself down must be in the trillions. But now I understand why.

I am not Paul Ford
I am not a man
I am not my feelings
I am not what I own
I am not my thoughts
I am not my career
or lack of one

More and more of these truths occur to me everyday yet even though at times I feel like my mind is splintered - I get clarity. I make connections between things I know and hear hundreds of times a day and cannot write my thoughts quickly enough. I learn that the language I speak contains information that I have never been able to share but have always believed. For instance, the is a reason that spelling is called spelling. Grammar also. There is a reason why superstition is held onto and valued by some and ridiculed by others. But by reason I do not mean the innate meaning of the word as such, but that there is a significant relationship between mythology and law. Between Religion and superstition. Evil and money. This sounds like the ravings of a madman but I interpret the world in an inverse fashion compared to how I used to. It's all back to front but I feel blessed. I haven't found god. I haven't joined a cult or made a pact to become pregnant. I haven't been abducted by aliens or kidnapped by MI6 - yet! But something astonishing is growing inside me that has always been there. Jobless as I am and ambition less as I may be viewed by some people in life, I have found something truly valuable. Something that makes me so happy that the tears come easily.

You see I always wanted to be good at things, clever, good, handsome, determined, ambitious, successful, stable and without pain. I figured that I hated my life and if I could just get good at things.....people would listen and help and advise and counsel and respect me. I would be able to have command of my life if I could just get good at things.

It's in this recent time of depression and anger mixed with sublime realisation that I realised that I have not only been playing the game wrong - I haven't even been playing the game I thought I was! Imagine coming to the very probable conclusion that you do not actually exist! As ridiculous as this sounds I defy anyone to prove to me that they do. It is a phenomenal idea that makes no sense at first. None at all. But sometimes my brain hurts - it's time for a break.

The beauty of this world astounds me moment by moment.

Human DNA not originating on earth?

2008-06-13T19:15:00.003+01:00

Something people used to write of as ramblings of kooks and my favorite derogatory phrase these days - "conspiracy theorists", the news is reporting that human DNA might not have originated on Earth.

The article claimed that a heavy form of carbon (13! Strange that it's friday the 13th today...a day that the BBC has had comms and sound problems all day) that can only be found in space has been found to be in nucleotide bases of DNA and RNA on a meteorite that crashed in Australia in 1969. I wonder what the skeptics have to say about conspiracy theorists regarding this? How do they pass this off as rubbish conspiracy thinking. It was on C4 news tonight.....and I point back to the quote I published earlier of Paul Warburgs when I quote C4 news in saying that the foreign secretary, David Milliband, has said that the UK will be pressing ahead with the ratification of the Lisbon treaty. This is supposed to be impossible unless all 27 states ratify the treaty. You still think you live in a democracy?

Calls for Bush impeachment!!!

2008-06-13T19:09:00.003+01:00

This is the best news i've heard this year!

So can anyone tell me why it isn't being reported on the news???? I thought we lived in an open and free country?

2008-06-13T19:08:00.001+01:00

Jose manuel barrosso has been quoted by C4 news as saying that it's ratification continues!!
Apparently polish officials think that Ireland will "find a way to ratify it"!

The Lisbon treaty rejected?

2008-06-13T14:13:00.003+01:00

BBC News is reporting that the Lisbon treaty has been defeated by a no vote in the referendum in Ireland! Is this to be believed? That Democracy can work against the huge machinery of Europe? We'll see.......I do know this;

David Davis, former shadow home secretary hopes to force a debate over the "42 day" bill, hoping to force a by-election in his constituency.
The bill has succeeded in passing the first part of it's "test"...awaiting approval from the house of lords.
A former editor of the sun (!) plans to stand against him if Labour don't have the balls to defend their own bill.

Incidentally, The bill is not just about locking potentially innocent people up for 6 weeks. An offense to anyone who lives in this "free country". If you were fortunate enough to catch the debate in the house of commons over parts 3 & 6 of the bill then you would know that many ministers described the bill as a

"fundamental violation" that breaches "fundamental principles of common law".
That it "grants extraordinary powers to the secretary of state", is "profoundly and comprehensively wrong", and "repugnant, unnecessary and ineffective".

But do we all know about the government succeeding through this bill to secure the ability of the secretary of state to have the discretion of removing juries from inquests?

United Kingdom

Main article: Secretary of State (United Kingdom)

In the United Kingdom, a secretary of state is a cabinet minister in charge of a government department (though not all departments are headed by a Secretary of State, e.g. HM Treasury is headed by the Chancellor of the Exchequer). There is in theory only one office of Secretary of State, and legislation generally refers only to "the Secretary of State". In practice, there are a number of Secretaries of State, each of whom can exercise the functions of the Secretary of State, and formally titled "Her Majesty's Principal Secretary of State for ...". These positions can be created without primary legislation.

This legislation covers areas such as inquests into military deaths, deaths in police custody or pursuit and health and safety inquests involving negligence or malice. This is a huge array of possible cases where family members and friends of victims who have died at work or any other of the situations covered by the above face the possibility of having the jury deliberating on the case REMOVED from the case! He/she also has the authority to change the Coroner itself! and appoint "special Coroners" at their pleasure.

But back to the referendum......

It is essential if the global plan is to go ahead that the ratification of this treaty is successful. They are reporting another "very close" or "too close to call" result - just like the commons vote on the counter-terror bill.

The interesting thing about these two issues is that they are important pillars of policy for Brown. We have heard much recently of Brown's leadership problems, u-turns etc. His position will be reported as threatened tomorrow I'm guessing. Two possibilities of the outcome of the David Davis issue may be that the by-election provokes a firm vote in favour of the "42 day detention" bill - consolidating the official quotes that 70% of British people agree with it. Or, by not challenging this by-election, combined with a defeat for the government on the Lisbon treaty, the "pressure" on Brown to step down or concede the need for an election will ensure that the conservatives will come to power. This may seem to offer the public the long awaited change in government that will be nothing of the sort. The "42 day" bill will stand regardless of the promises by the conservatives that they will repeal it when they get to power (a reference on newsnight 12/06/08). "the whole point of the lisbon treaty is to make decision making easier" is the BBC line on the issue...repeated over and over and over. It will go ahead in one form or another..they will give it a jazzy new name like Lisbon treaty instead of EU constitution. (a reference to angela merckel's remarks that it was 98% EU constitution.)

Where is all this going? The machinery of Europe, while publicly claiming to act democratically in this whole process, ( only god knows how when Ireland are the only constituent country to be asked it's opinion & permission!!!) grinds on negligent of the wishes of the majority of it's people. This whole farce of a referendum is designed to cement an idea in your mind that democracy is alive and well in the "developed" world. I am reminded of Paul Warburg who once exclaimed:

"We shall have world government, whether or not we like it, by conquest or consent".
- His council on foreign relations address to the Senate Foreign Relations committee, Feb 17th, 1950.

2008-06-01T15:31:00.003+01:00

So, Ireland are getting a referendum o the Lisbon treaty in a fortnight? This is the same referendum that Milliband is talking about here.....

google the Lisbon treaty and find out what the implications are for the UK. We are slowly being absorbed as a nation into a superstate where national sovereignty will be a thing of the past.

2008-05-05T15:24:00.004+01:00

Turmoil is coming my friends, with the IMF set to sell huge sums of gold to flood the market of the only real last financial safety net the people of the world has. So organizations large and small and the individual cannot seek financial stability in gold. With the global energy crisis also being a figment of some one's imagination, massive sums can be generated by instability created in the middle east driving the price of oil through the roof. Oil is what the present US economy is based upon, since the abolition of the gold standard dollar in 1971 by Nixon. Strangely, Saddam Hussein changed the sale of Oil from dollars to Euros before the 2003 invasion. Iran has followed suit. Is the looming attack on Iran purely a revenge maneuver that serves the long-term US plan for the middle east? As we have previously learned, the published official reasons for anything can no longer be trusted by the people. Remember the hype of WMD's and al-qaida links that were shown to be purely false? I have listed a non-profit organisation's report on the 1000+ times the Bush administration lied to the world's press. There are videos all over youtube and the internet that show them to be completely backtracking on what they said because it was all lies. I dread the proposed impeachment of Bush and Cheney as it will inevitably lead to an attack on Iran and the declaring of martial law in the US....how will the UK react to publication of the case against Blair? It is easy to dismiss this as one of those "it'll never happen" possibilities but does anyone who has read of the agenda believe this?

A book called Atlas Shrug, narrated to his mistress by one of the rockefellers, (her name is Ayn Rand) is a book that details the plans of the illuminati as a fictional story - part of the trivialisation and mis-information tactics of the media moguls and big boys.

Is there anyone out there that thinks the politicians act independently of the media and vice versa? A dependent media cannot exercise free speech. I must state this to be what I know as the truth:

All financial, corporate -inc media, food supply, health - private and state systems are both co-dependent and controlled by men and women who are not accountable to the public. This lack of transparency is growing daily and as we approach the ratification of the lisbon treaty we enter a world where dissenters will be alienated by their friends and family and the disenfranchised youth will be herded more than now into prisons which only identify the illegality of offenders' actions instead of the underlying causes of their behavior. The public has a succinctly myopic view of the origin of the problems we all face as a society. How many times have you heard people say "its that tony blair's fault!"? How can a private institution set an imaginary interest rate for your imaginary money and then it be blamed on public official? The truth is this:

"whoever controls the volume of money in any country is absolute master of all industry and commerce" - Paul Warburg, drafter of the federal reserve act.

The federal reserve act in the US was a crime against the American people. Why? because the people were deceived into accepting as constitutional a bullying tactic of the huge financial interests of Europe and the US which meant that these private interests controlled the production and regulation of currency on both sides of the atlantic. There will be those of you who would write off the influence of these big banking firms as obsolete, but they have never been stronger - except perhaps in their prime in the middle ages under the poor soldiers of christ. These monks, later known as the knights templar, were the most powerful and rspected order whose authority defied all but that of the papacy in Rome. They were outlawed by philip of france and robbed of their riches. They were driven underground and roamed the world illegally, spoken of as pirates. At their peak they were highly successful traders and bankers. I think that they evolved through the black market to the masonic orders that exist throughout Europe and the US, which in turn spawned other secret societies like skull and bones which is based at Yale university in the US. It is these interests alone of global domination that shape the course of politics today - not the will of a democracy. The world is a stage and the political system a farce, a movie, played to the public to make them believe they have a say. Snippets of biased information and misinformation are sold to us as news and we all struggle to put the pieces together so much that it is far easier to let other people worry about it in the naive belief that it is not your problem. Even more naive is the belief that it does not affect you or your family. Des anyone you know or love not depend upon money for their very survival? Have mulitnational global industries and the success of western civilisation not built upon the monetary system? the system that controls what your money is worth is the SAME system that controls what your food costs and what you can afford to by. Which is the SAME system that can imprison you indefinitely for "suspicious behaviour". Are you starting to understand where I am coming from here?

I know it seems like total fantasy. But I have had a glimpse of the possibility that I and everything else on this planet is nothing less than a divine being. Lost knowledge asserts the idea that we are infinitely capable beings, part of an infinitely capable consciousness of being that some call god. This is what the system does not want you to understand. The catholic church and christianity and Islam does not want you to understand.Your true nature and the power of now is a phenomenon (another idea that has been trivialised by hollywood with the help of john travolta!) that is spoken of in all great books of history and is the seat of the soul. The glory of humankind is the ability to understand itself and it's place in the totality of life.

Religion does nothing more than separate one from God, under the pretense of saving your soul. Horrific murder is carried out in the name of god and freedom every day on your TV and you dismiss it, as the world is too difficult and too big for one person to physically change anything - right? Haven't you just got too much to worry about already? Well if you have, like most of the population of this and all other countries across the world, then can it not be understood that the very problems these people create in our daily lives can easily lead to our indirect compliance with all of their abuses across the world - even on your own doorstep? Even ones that affect your family (I would like to know if anyone can think of any large global events that have not affected every family in the world!)

Surely this is all an accident? Surely this scale of deceit and manipulation, murder and coercion bullying and abuse would take a global network of hundreds of millions of people working night and day to keep us from uncovering the truth? Surely common solutions to each individual's problems are impossible when the free will of 6.8 billion global citizens is taken into account?

Edward R. Murrow:

"A nation of sheep will beget a government of wolves."

IS this not what is approaching? Or do you think everything is an accidental process of free will expressed by billions of people? Major law-breaking by governments a natural consequence of terror? Murder justifies more murder and abuse of women and children? Social decay is second in importance to your security and well being? Don't sheep need protecting? Guiding, manipulating? I know I sound like an old fart when I say this but the world is going to pot and if you can answer yes to some of the above questions you may cease to be one of the herd and follow a path that fulfills your highest divinity, expressing only love and devotion to all.

2008-04-22T09:49:00.002+01:00

I am utterly convinced that there's something big on the horizon. The opening ceremony in Beijing is on the 8th of August and Brown has confirmed he will not be attending while the german president has said :

"If there are no signals of compromise, then I believe the boycott measures would be justified," President Hans-Gert Pottering said in an interview with German newspaper Bild am Sonntag.

"We must not exclude the possibility of a boycott of the Beijing Olympics. We want them [the Games] to be a success, but not at the expense of the cultural genocide of Tibetans," the official added.

Brown has said that Britain's athletes will definitely attend the Olympics and is staying away from the subject of a boycott. It happened in '84 in LA. 20,000 reporters are rumored to be attending the games, plenty to observe the horror that in my view, is planned to happen here and in America before or during the games. The headlines might read..."while the world were looking the other way, watching the games .....terror strikes at the heart of democracy". I'm betting something unprecedented again will terrify us all and herd us like even weaker sheep into the pen. The untold amount of damage to our freedom posed by the legislation both intended and already in place is a phenomenal time in british history. I'd be brave enough to say that since the establishment of parliament, never before has an "elected" government had so much power over the people. The US attorney general has publicly stated that the constitution does not specifically ensure habeus corpus. In an era where we are all too scared to voice our opinion for fear of ridicule and the hypocrisy of our own voices in our heads allows us to trundle along every day telling ourselves that we are free while knowing there is something wrong big time, grave dangers are ahead. Whether you believe me or not, keep your eye on the news. Watch as the hype builds and builds around the olympics and the tension at the beginning of the games reaches unprecedented levels around the world. I predict a big bang, perfect timing for the elections in the US to be cancelled and martial law to be enacted through the president's already self-proclaimed right to do so. Bush has more executive power now than any president in history. But everyone assumes that he will leave office at the end of the year. While some constituents (a2/3 majority in some states) are calling for his impeachment (something you NEVER hear on the news here..........) he is further centralizing the power of the executive in case of a "national emergency. It needs to be said here that bush DOES NOT need permission of congress to declare this national emergency and take measures to police his own citizens with US forces.

With house repossessions at all time highs on both sides of the atlantic and aircraft carriers already poised to strike Iran, the world is braced for something that will again "change the world" like 911 did. Be warned, when BUSH says the world has changed.....what he is really saying is that citizen's ability to check the government with congressional power has changed, along with his own ability to singlehandedly use the force of law to impose any conditions that he likes upon his own citizens..........don't believe me? google hr 1955 and see the potential illegality of logical argument for political influence contained in this document which is awaiting approval from the US Senate. What event could possibly justify this action by the government? I thought that America was free? I thought we were free! Yet I'm pretty sure that a police officer no longer needs a warrant to enter my flat and take what he wants in the name of preventing terrorism. Does anyone actually know what the Terrorism Act 2000 says? What really scares me is the naivety of grown adults who happily say "if it keeps me safe then i'll tolerate them saying they can do anything".

All I can say is this: When a government declares the right to act whichever way IT decides, because the people did not argue when the laws were passed right under their noses, it will decide at some point to do things that the majority of the people will despise and attempt to rally against. Remember this, when your ability to speak out has been removed by letter of the law under the pretense that it constitutes terrorism, you can no longer protest against ANYTHING.

Can't keep up with the price of food or petrol? - tough! can't pay your mortgage cause the interest rates are skyrocketing under a recession? - tough! I need to educate people here. Laws are not made to combat a specific event at a specific time, they are passed to deter that act from being committed at ANY TIME IN THE FUTURE. So when a law exists that entitles you to a fair trial by a jury, that law ensures that if you ever find yourself in an unforeseen position of the victim of accusation, you are protected by the law that allows you to fight your accusers on a level playing field. When you give up that right by default, by saying nothing when it is destroyed, you have no legal recourse in the future to protect yourself against inaccurate, mistaken or simple false information that can be provided to the authorities by people who simply do not agree with what you say or just don't like you. When you have legislation that insanely lists offenses that are tantamount to SUSPICIOUS BEHAVIOUR you place phenomenal amounts of trust in an organisation that has been shown, over and over and over and over and over again, that they cannot be trusted with social security information, let alone you freedom and protection. I'm not anti-government or anti-war or anti-anything. It just terrifies me that the people close to me are able to sit back and relax while the government declares itself TOTAL AUTHORITY when they have seen example after example show that these people cannot be trusted. Who is insane enough to relinquish there own rights and powers to people who are not required BY LAW to TELL THE TRUTH. This is a fact, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls. The british government is NOT required by ANY LAW to TELL YOU THE TRUTH. But you are happy while they continue to take away your ability to stand against them under the pretense of PROTECTING YOU?

So why do you tolerate it? Well, for a start, there's so many TV channels to watch these days you don't even know it is happening. You don't KNOW. Because you change the channel when something "boring" comes on the TV. Politics is designed to be boring, that's why they all bloody dress the same. How can you fight something you know nothing about? How can you defend your rights when you don't know what they are? That is what i meant in the last post about asking yourself what you actually know. Cos if you are brave enough to do it you will prove to yourself that the answer really is....not that much. Get informed before it is too late and you can't fight back. Laugh away at the doomsayer's predictions, but you won't be laughing in the next couple of years...in fact, i'll go as far to say that you won't be laughing after the olympics.

What the hell is goin on???

2008-04-16T14:52:00.003+01:00

You know what I love?.....when people who are convinced that they know exactly what they are talking about have to eat their words and disappear from view while they overcome the embarrassment. Ive heard about a guy recently who has said that people who question the official events of 911 are like holocaust deniers! I think his name is Alex Cohen, writes for the telegraph. Isn't it miraculous that in a time where we are constantly being surprised by global economic meltdown problems, terrorist attack and drastically falling house prices, that alot of people continue to think they know it all! Especially those older than you!!! Try and tell someone that you shouldn't be paying taxes to the British government at the moment. Half of them will pretend they know already.....and the other half will argue till their blue in the face that you are wrong having seen not a shred of evidence either for their argument or against!!!! They know better than the international criminal court don't they? most people do not know very little about politics yet they'll argue and mock and insult and rage against anyone who even mentions freedom of speech!!! I've got some serious news for anyone reading this.

We're in the shit.

Our generation is facing the consequences of the ridiculous attitudes and standards forced upon us by our parents, their parents and the manipulated opinion of this "free" society we live in. Not to mention the piece of god- awful shite they pass off as the education system. If anyone fancies arguing the crack then feel free -

But this is what I see when I look at the world....

Entire societies based on the sheep in the pen system of thinking that goes a little something like this..........

"don't be stupid - that'll never happen!" Another one of my favorites.....
"that's impossible!"
"what will my mates think of me?, my mom?, dad?, brothers?, sisters? everyone at work? everyone down the pub?" "if i say what i really think.....I have to fit in somehow......"

"i know what to do". A brain wave occurs...............
"you know what? I'm gonna, think, talk, dress, act, feel, fear, suspect, shout, admire, want, criticize, follow, obey and submit - just like everyone else does! that way I'll never be singled out from the crowd and I can finally be accepted by everyone around me forever! that is until the little screen in the corner tells me to start hating china............or muslims........or conspiracy theorists or unpatriotic people......or........."

What is next? is there gonna be a national dogshit dna database to catch people who let their dogs do the dirty on the pavement?

What the hell is goin on? I read some bill hicks stuff the other day and he is a legend.......you ever fell over a homeless guy and have it occur to you that the system just don't work? Does anyone ever think there might be something wrong if a million people are marching in the streets?

Let me give you some news. You may not realize this, but television has managed over the past 30 - odd years to trivialize absolutely every subject that dissent is based on. Hollywood and TV are the spawn of the devil, seriously.

it goes like this. Tony Blair joins a coalition that illegally bombs, maims, and kills and injures tens of thousands of innocent people after ten years of disgusting child murdering sanctions and aerial bombardment. That'll finish em off. Contrary to hugely popular belief, ALL WAR IS ILLEGAL.
So what is the media's response?

What we're gonna do right, is release a channel 4 mockumentary called the trial of tony blair, where, get this! - he gets nicked for WAR CRIMES! What a laugh! that way, when people go mad about what we're doin, the guy next to em in the pub will just say..."you've been watching too much channel 4 mate!" it was just a documentary! Ridicule and mockery of the dissenter complete, we can crack on with the child disappearances...that'll shit em right up.

And all the "reasonable" people think "the TV aint the real world so he must be wrong to think that tony blair might actually be a war criminal"

Welcome to alice in wonderland....where everything is exactly what it isnt...............

haven't you heard it down the boozer? " you been watchin too many x-files mate", anyone truly interested in peace and love between us all is a treehugger! Or they are so naive! That is the one that gets me.....people who know naff all about politics, religion or any other subject worth debating smiling at you as if to say...."ah, bless him! if only he knew..." I know more about what is happening in this world than alot of people, yet people look at me like I'm the one who needs help!Can everyone really not see what is so blindingly obvious about the garbage "civilization" we all live in? Why is it that people that have been alive longer assume they know more than you do?

check these vids.........

http://wearechange.org.uk/

I'm considering starting a blog called alice in wonderland..........cos it might make sense to more people..........but this is how crazy the world is.....

Northern rock goes belly up and the government response is sold to the public as a "rescue package". The disaster gets on prime time news with signals that the economy is facing a massive crisis that, like everything else that happens, is a total surprise and not our fault. We are as usual merely the victims of a global disaster that stumbles from stage to stage and all our wealth, resources and power and brains can't even attempt to fight this unpredictability of the financial markets. - this shits us all right up! big time! By the way, you can substitute the words financial crisis for any public threat you choose eg terrorism, global warming, we're all so busy debating over whether taxpayers should pay for the bailout that no-one notices the (understandably hush hush reading in parliament) introduction of the banking bill. This bill effectively gives the government the authority to "rescue" by direct intervention, any bank that shows signs of dangerous activity........

I tried googled the banking bill the day it was very quietly announced and could find not one article on the internet that could tell me what it does. Given it was a new act it didnt take em long to write it did it?

Let me put it very simply for everyone. You know the confusion you feel when you watch news programs about billion dollar deals going down, interwoven with pictures of famine and suffering? The way we can fight an invisible enemy with visible weaponry but we can't stop little kids killing eachother? we can fight the taliban and the evil saddam hussien but cannot afford to keep community centres open or keep the hospitals clean? The person responsible for a multimillion pound cockup that has made doctors studying for the past ten years have to start the whole process of finding work all over again - thousands of them.......she doesn't get prosecuted like you do when you urinate in the street, she gets a new job! doesn't that sound familiar? shuffled out to a backbench job like Olympics technical coordinator or technology and standards..........nuclear safety or some other shite. She lost millions of punds of our money and nothing happens? If i lost a million pounds worth of anyones money i'd be expecting a kicking, not a pay cut and a different job.

Back to the point........this confusion....
well...this is a very very very bold statement to make. I know what the confusion is. I know what the problem is........

It's you.

Think about how the national news makes you feel...........scared? Angry? helpless? insignificant? uneducated - when they start talkin about footsies and down jones and pounds and dollars up and sideways....do you feel a little bit stupid? or inadequate? like you just dont know enough? But then the england results come on and everything is alright again....something you can understand.......the footie, the cricket, the rugby.....don't you ever wonder how you can get absolutely bombarded with information 24 hrs a day yet not really know why things are happening?

Most people would say it is because the news is objective and only gives you an unbiased view of the news. But i'm sorry to burst your bubble......but that shit just aint true........

Ask yourself about one thing..........ask yourself : what do I think about Heather Mills ?(used to be mccartney) I bet you have quite a well informed opinion of what sort of person she is........what she stands for...what she is trying to achieve.......what she wants....what she might do next..........what she's rally after....

Then ask yourself another question.........

How do I know all this stuff?
Have I ever met her? Spoken to her? Questioned her about anything? Those of you still asleep these days will automatically override any questions asked by the self with a very well rehearsed answer that comes without even thinking........it goes through your mind so fast that you dont even recall thinking it..........."cos they said she was.........on the news...."

Take any subject currently knocking around public debate..........and ask yourself the biggest question I have ever asked myself........What do I actually Know?

2008-03-31T18:53:00.001+01:00

all you have to do is look..................

2008-03-31T18:36:00.005+01:00

But more important than all of those things......

is what is inside the you that thinks them..........

it has no limit, no guilt, no shame, only love

and there is more than enough to go around.....

dhar·ma (där'mə, dûr'-) n.
Hinduism & Buddhism
The principle or law that orders the universe.
Individual conduct in conformity with this principle.
The essential function or nature of a thing.
The body of teachings expounded by the Buddha.
Knowledge of or duty to undertake conduct set forth by the Buddha as a way to enlightenment.
One of the basic, minute elements from which all things are made.
Hinduism Individual obligation with respect to caste, social custom, civil law, and sacred law.
Buddhism
The body of teachings expounded by the Buddha.

important????

2008-03-28T14:45:00.002Z

What can be more important than the world being slowly coerced into a state of seemingly blissful ignorance - while unspeakable acts of evil are perpetrated against hundreds of millions of innocent people? The millions condemned to suffering unimaginably by the material greed of the few, made possible only by our acquiescence to the rule of tyranny and oppression disguised as sovereign power and democracy, will continue to die until their lives are valued as equal to ours. This doesn't require mass protest, law-breaking and upheaval on an international scale. There is no call for an uprising or a physical revolution. The entirety of what is needed is in our hearts and minds. All it needs to begin an organic evolution into reality is the changing of our desires, actions, thoughts and emotions. If we no longer see this evil as a monstrous organised conspiracy and see it for what it is we can begin to internally demand a better world to live in. Internally decide not to submit to the dominance of the few over the many.

Incidently, this phrase (winning hearts and minds) is commonly used by the war machine to describe their efforts to win over civilian populations and encourage them to accept domination by the higher powers.

on the john lennon picture below the poster says "war is over - if you want it" The "if you want it is quite deliberately in small print" At the moment not many of us want it because that idea threatens the basis of our belief of superiority and right to have what we have no matter what the cost to others and the planet that we inhabit.

But let's get onto the mportant things. Council tax, income tax, food, mortgage, electricity, clothes, computers, tvs, comedy, car insurance, pet insurance, house insurance, furniture, tv license, passport, holiday photos, christmas, what time it is, what day it is, what month it is, payrises, job cuts, unemployment, suicides, kidnappings, terrorism, murder, rape, political correctness, the hundreds of products in the house that keep it clean, tidy and repsectable, 3 in one oust! from a family company, funerals, painful memories, deciet, lies, what other people think of us ( that is a biggie!), going out, getting obliterated on stuff we know nothing about, who is sleeping with who this week, cancer, arthritus, diabetes, back pain, shoulder pain, holidays, books, TV, whats happening on emmerdale?, who killed JR, what new films are out? need to change my ringtone/facebook/myspace page/outfit/personality/job/diet/ route to work/car/haircolour/career/girlfriend/boyfriend/uni/college/tablets/flat/house/kids/parents/

friends. Getting drunk, getting stoned, how are my family? what's on the news? Who am I? Is my brother happy? Is my gf happy? Am I happy? Why is my boss horrible to me? Why do people let their dog's shit on the pavement? I haven't done any washing today, haven't cleaned up, forgot to play the lottery, how much is the jackpot?

Speaking of which.....the only thing that enables us to worry about these things is so insignificant it is the elephant in the room of all ideas and physical or psychological systems of control. It is the lifeblood of all suffering and ineqaulity and inhumanity in this frightening and disgusting world we have all come to see as the "real world". It is the fountain of all deciet,greed and evil that the world has ever seen. For it traps us in an entire civilisation where the only people who gain real recognition by the peers are the ones that have the most of it. A civilisation that values this over the majority of life on this planet. It is the source of all security that we constantly crave and all superficial redemption in the mirror of our egos to compensate for what we have failed to achieve in the past. Finally, it ties us to a prison that has no real bars and is built simply from fear, doubt, lack of self-worth and hopelessness.

The sad thing is that you probably carry it everywhere.

The sad truth is that none of it is actually yours. But we'll go into that next time eh?

The debate

2008-03-28T12:46:00.003Z

I always do like a challenge. There is nothing more challenging than trying to convince everyone that you care about to contemplate the possibility that they may not actually be here. This seems quite profound - yet it is more important than global warming, more crucial than the government budget and much more important than what the "celebrities" are wearing this week. The thing that hits me most about society is the astonishing lack of reason used by many people. We have been told what to think for so long that reason and logic are beginning to escape us (don't get me wrong - these are not the building blocks of understanding...........creativity and ignorance are just as important). I nearly fell off the sofa watching the video about the london bombings. A woman that the guy interviews fully justifies the execution ( let us speak the truth here - because that is what it was) of charles de menesez on the london underground. The most awesome comment on the video jumped right out at me. The woman said that she thought "people should give up their liberty for freedom".

lib·er·ty /ˈlɪbərti/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[lib-er-tee] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun, plural -ties.
1. freedom from arbitrary or despotic government or control.
2.freedom from external or foreign rule; independence.
3.freedom from control, interference, obligation, restriction, hampering conditions, etc.; power or right of doing, thinking, speaking, etc., according to choice.

4.freedom from captivity, confinement, or physical restraint: The prisoner soon regained his liberty.
5.permission granted to a sailor, esp. in the navy, to go ashore.
6.freedom or right to frequent or use a place: The visitors were given the liberty of the city.
7.unwarranted or impertinent freedom in action or speech, or a form or instance of it: to take liberties.
8.a female figure personifying freedom from despotism. —Idiom
9.at liberty,

a.free from captivity or restraint.
b.unemployed; out of work.
c.free to do or be as specified: You are at liberty to leave at any time during the meeting.

free·dom /ˈfridəm/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[free-duhm] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint: He won his freedom after a retrial.
2.exemption from external control, interference, regulation, etc.
3.the power to determine action without restraint.

Now this woman sounded stupid and looked stupid, but i do not think that anyone is particularly stupid. When you see her body language as she says this you will see that she doesn't believe a word of what she is saying. I thought i glimpsed a realisation on her face of how ridiculous this sounded. We live in a dangerous world. Not one of immediate physical danger. But one where the very language we speak is being used to subvert and undermine every ideal that anyone who truly wants to be free has. This kind of backwards, self-contradictory, diversive, pseudo-language is ALL OVER THE TV, ALL OVER THE TABLOIDS, ALL OVER THE INTERNET. It is not english - it is something new. What sells is the only thing we are allowed to see in the mainstream media. According to michael tsarion, the medes were a tribe well known in days of old as sources of advice and assistance for the kings and queens and despots who were in control of societies of old. They were considered great sorcerers. This woman was merely repeating what she had been told........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MoXkTg-Uoz4

The news is clearly and openly building an ideological framework for this country built on stereotypical thinking, bias, ignorance and propoganda - not information, reason, compassion and intellect. The sad truth for everyone who reads this is that society as a whole is supremely ignorant of all the things that really do matter in the world. I would be willing to bet that such a state of ignorance has never before existed in civilisation. Where this all leads is abhorrent.

Why do we not revolt physically when the government has been shown to be dishonest?

Why is it that an illegal war against innocent people killing over a million civilians so far and thousands of men and women who are somebody's children, brothers, sisters, cousins, is allowed to continue where people die every day and we do nothing? Even though there are sufficient facts to doubt the very integrity of the government over these issues that have cost priceless lives and vast sums of money?

Why do we not all refuse to go to work until madeliene mccann is found and her parents are held accountable for their part in what has happened to that little girl?

the murder of 3000 innocent people that morning in america was perpetrated not by militant islamist terrorists. It was what is called a false flag operation. Perpetrated by the government of the united states against it's own people. Politicians are liars and cheats and should be imprisoned every time a falsehood leaves their lips. How many years are we going to tolerate this for? How many generations of children have suffered this disgrace? How many people have died and are buried at the very foundations of this false democracy and freedom establishment?

Hundreds and hundreds of millions.

Why is it TOLERATED?

Because we have more important things to think about.....

2008-03-28T00:13:00.001Z

Who thinks this is a free country?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uVhaSbYpTyI&feature=related

Shocking but real........

2008-03-28T00:10:00.002Z

When will it be common knowledge that the government is anything but our saviour?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GwJvximahs&feature=related

2008-03-27T20:08:00.004Z

I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together.

- I am the walrus - The Beatles

I like finding esoteric yet interesting and inspiring lines from familiar songs. These guys were always telling us something. However trippy these tunes sound i reckon there is always something profound blatantly being sung on them. Abbey road is something phenomenal.......Let it be too......

I like finding links between things at the moment, links that I had never considered before. Sally likes to call them synchronicities. Some say that nature and reality itself has symmetry, a product of the beauty of our understanding of the world.

Why do we have to bloody work anyway?

Cos everyone else says so? Don't get me wrong - I wanna make as much of a contribution to the world as the next man, but why don't I get to do it on my terms? I know that sounds selfish but I never knew what I wanted to be when i grew up and before i knew it i'd ran out of time to figure it out. BHAM! - I'd grown up and that was that. I've always been playing catchup. Where did all the time go where you could decide what you wanted to be.

My mom would have cursed if i had said that I didn't want to be anything - why wouldn't people just let me be. The very question is laced with expectancy of an ambition that is better than what you are at the point you are asked! What was wrong with me being me? Why did I always struggle to find an answer? Isn't being human an admirable achievement?

Why isn't empathy, understanding and the will to bestow the currency of our society? Why are the shallow and vile ideals of large corporations so admired from afar by people who watch the apprentice? Coca cola is affecting the surface level of available drinking water in India so that it can be sold to us. We're even taking their water off them! Isn't paying someone else for it as bad as doing it yourself? This is a period of ethical revealing and the breaking down of old systems.

I recently heard a guy on a video talk of the universe as expanding and contracting at the same time. I watch some far out stuff with sally and some of it really blows my mind. There are so many things I want to do and read that i just don't know where to start!!!

There are revolutions taking place in theoretical physics that are becoming major philosophical questions if you dare to think about them. This at a time of the revealing of the reality of who we are. The destructions brought by the indian god shiva are necessary for the next stage of our evolution.....the sixth world of the mayan calendar. Strangely enough no prophecies have been found relating to after this time......21st dec 2012. Why is this so? A blank canvas of consciousness ?( which is what the mayans also studied...). For us to psint whatever picture of reality we like? As my thoughts become more abstract in everyday life I glimpse happiness. I feel like a robot beginning to feel what it is like to be human. I think again of nietzche's overman and hope that it is coming. Every single thing we do and think changes the universe itself. Will a glimpse of happiness lead to full understanding? Are they both intertwined as i am with every other being on this planet? There is an extraordinary variety of ways to try and avoid this. Yet it is happening in our very understanding, in our pshyches and egos. So is unavoidable. It is happening in the events unfolding on the news.............

synchronicity

2008-03-23T17:44:00.004Z

Just when i needed it most i stumbled across someone else writing a blog in a far more definite direction than this one that was so eloquent i had to add the site to a links category for all to see. It's out there but a must read..........it's called winging with whitehawk. To try and publicly convey such astonishingly complex subjects and concepts so simply is admirable to say the least. I don't think that many people are ready to tackle the implications of what science is now telling us with the help of theoretical physics and advanced mathematics. One of the videos I list below claims that "there is no matter as such" - a purely breathtaking statement with wondrous implications for the understanding and development of humanity. To think or know that everything in the known or accepted conceptions of reality and existence, past, present and future, is an interwoven and interlinked web of endless energy vibrating at different frequencies is one thing. To be conscious of this is entirely another.

Meanwhile the misery of most of the world continues and it cannot be too soon before the majority of society demands the truth and acknowledges the value of the lives of every being in the world and our possibilities as knowers of our existence. All that the realisation of this demands is the correct desires within us all. If it was possible to view each of your most precious memories in one constant stream and experience them emotionally and consciously forever - wouldn't you choose that over deciding what to have to eat tonight? If you could experience the collective love of everything on this planet for one second - wouldn't you choose that over choosing a car, an outfit, a house? If you could consciously experience every moment of all of your lives wouldn't you want to? Would you like to always feel safe when you close your eyes and never have to worry about tomorrow? I have wanted these things all my life. It may sound impossible - but that is the beauty of the vision of human beings - nothing is impossible. I always thought there was an answer.......something missing in my life. I grew up convinced it was money and status. I have outgrown this and yearn for my place in the universe. The beauty of my existence is that the way i now understand it to be, the limits of distance and time in my mind do not really exist. Maybe i am consciously re-living this wonderful part of my mind in a fractal corner of my mind because the times when i woke up were the times i most treasure. It is liberating to think of the future in the past tense while i type in the present.

When does the present stop being the future and become the past?

Conscious co-creation has always been happening hasn't it?

What is the difference between time and thought? is it only the words?

Are the words we use to communicate our existence the very barriers of understanding that very existence?

Is 2012 really the point of the conscious evolution of our species - made necessary by the horrific events to come?

Are we about to transcend the suffering of our "past" lives?

Or are we living all of these lives simultaneously and able to choose between them through our conscious desires or choices?

I think me and sally will start to meditate soon. We will need to to stay centred during the coming upheaval in our 3d world. If anyone knows where to get more info on these surreal questions it would be very welcome by me and everyone I love.

because all we want is to be happy, don't you?

Emptiness

2008-03-21T11:28:00.002Z

I feel lost at the moment. I have a voice in my head that says "write something" but I can't seem to find any words. When i saw martin yesterday i was determined to talk about my self-esteem. I didn't get to say much but he gave me a definition. It is what you believe to be true about yourself. We all give ourselves a hard time but i think some of us go much too far. This is nothing but a form of self-abuse. It has to stop. With all of us. This lowering of our opinion of ourselves is the root (at least in my case) of every unreasonable thought or action, every hurtful sentence i have spoken and action i have taken. Every time i have shied away from my abilities as a person is rooted in my very low opinion of myself. People who know me might think that i am crazy, that i appear confident and easily construct relationships with others. This is all on the surface. The reason i cannot and have never been able to decide what i really wanted to do with my life was that somewhere, very deep down at the bottom of my soul there has been a voice. It is a low whisper that tells me not to be silly - be realistic. That is far too risky. Get a job. Think about what you want later. You have more important things to think about than what you want. I have to be honest here. The huge majority of the pain in my life and misery and suffering that has dogged me since i can remember is a product of my own mind. I am not giving myself a hard time here. I know that alot of things that affected my mind did so with such extremity sometimes that the entire weight of the world seemed to be on my shoulders. I couldn't shake it. It chased me from room to room and the more i tried to hide the harder it became to deal with. I also know from work i have done with martin that my response mechanisms and coping strategies are entirely natural when the circumstances under which i grew up are looked at from an unbiased point of view. This is where martin has helped me so much.

I spent over twenty - five years keeping this stuff to myself. The wonderful and painful life i have shared with sally i now know to be the beginning of the end of my suffering. I resisted heavily in the beginning to any talk about my problems and this led to massive arguments and violence that frightened all of those around us. The more we hid from our problems the worse they became. The truth is that when we lost george i couldn't take it. Not on top of all the other stuff i was holding onto. I needed a push. But because my self-esteem is so low I do not make decisions based on what would be best for me. I literally fight myself until i explode and force a decision into being through necessity. I think this has been the origin of every outburst of rage and anger that has been followed by huge sadness and relief.

Depression is a monster. This monster doesn't have a form, description or identity. It creeps up on you and disrupts your thoughts and emotions to the point where you are unrecognisable to those around you. You live in a world where nothing is possible and nothing is worthwhile. You just want the pain to end but it doesn't. Ever. You strive for one thing......emptiness. Sometimes i can be happier than i have ever been before and out of the blue i cry. I feel immense pain that i cannot explain and all i want to do is hide from the world around me. Deny that it even exists. Even if i have to invent another world to live in i do. I deny all truth, listen to no-one and hope to fade into oblivion. The harder it became the more suicide became the appealing option. To hear me talk like this must have really hurt sally. She can be the most compassionate person i have ever met. She has listened to me for hours and hours. I like to think that we have saved eachother from many more re-incarnations and painful experiences. George changed the angle from which we view our lives and the choices we now make are based on different criteria. We are desperately trying only to generate good in our lives. I think that it is working.........

me nan..........

2008-03-16T15:06:00.002Z

When you find out that someone in your family is dying, you tend to feel shocked at first, then angry and confused. I've found it hard to make decisions over the past couple of days. Sally is and always has been an invaluable help to me. I haven't seen or spoken to my nan for a long time for many reasons but none more than others. I associate my memories of her with painful parts of the past and i'm looking forward to seeing her with sally and tim today.

The most wonderful thing is that i only feel sad about it when i begin to wish things were different. I think of the hardship in her and our family's life and i wish things were different. That's when it starts to hurt and when i recognise this i start to feel better by accepting it for what it is. The end of an era in my life that was painful. I love her because she is family. I remember what her bedroom smelt like when i was a kid. But it was such a painful and confusing time that i make all sorts of negative associations. My life now is wonderful because of these memories and the decisions i have and haven't made. I know she is only leaving the 3d world and hope that in her next life she will find happiness. It is what we are all destined to find - eventually.

She cut her hands when we were kids picking roses for us in the yard outside. We didn't take care of them and she was upset because she had cut herself getting them for us. We were just kids though. It's not there anymore. That was when she could walk. I used to help her with her jigsaws and she always liked phil collins. I'm gonna like showing her the taj mahal.

I know she has suffered in her life. I just wanna let her know that i'm alright. I'm sure she thinks of us all. It's gonna be hard seeing her and wondering if it will be the last time. I feel bad because i am actually quite happy that any pain she might still feel may end soon. I just wish i could say that to her. Maybe i will. Maybe i have already.

2008-03-14T11:55:00.009Z

Let me expand a little while wishing the kents a safe journey to their favourite place............

There is a difference between appearance and interpretation. To say that something appears a certain way implies (deceptively) that it has this appearance independently of your viewing of it. This is one of the most staggering untruths explained by quantum mechanical science and philosophy that i have come across. It is the question that stood directly in my way when trying to understand the experience of my life and why this way of thinking is opening the world up to me more and more. If the glass on the table does not exist independently of me then why do i see it and experience it this way? In the logical, left - brain, male - dominated world governed by the Gregorian calendar, appearance is the most valued and solid concept in or lives. We judge absolutely everything by this standard interpretation. People, pets, prospective jobs or employees, clothes, friends, family, products that we own or want to own, cars, the news, restaurants, websites - the list goes on literally forever. Some of us would ask "so what?"

Well, do you remember being at school and hearing a story (whichever one it was) about the moral of not judging a book by it's cover? The hare and the tortoise was one of them......

How many of us actually put that wonderful idea into practise throughout our daily lives? Those pompous enough will say that they do this all of the time. The time is coming where even the most complex deceit will be unravelled and shown for what it really is. So now is a good time to be honest with ourselves and think about how much we instantly judge objects, people, strangers, homeless people, customers of ours, bosses, products, doctors, teachers etc. This is a difficult issue to overcome. This is how we "survive". Our mind is a tool. I have mentioned this before, courtesy of the late and very great ian lungold. This tool was picked up by our ancestors many thousands of years ago when the old stimulus response mechanism in our brains began to be overcome by greater urges for understanding. In those times we behaved like animals.....simply responding to stimuli in our natural environment. Just as the stimulus- response mechanism was improved upon so will that of oour minds. The concept of consideration began to creep into our consciousness. To be able to consider something we must be able to compare it to objects or ideas in our memory. These objects or ideas or concepts did not necessarily have labels...for language had not yet been developed. Consideration is a wonderful and amazing thing. Yet it is something we all tend to do so quickly that we don't give things or objects or ideas or people anywhere near a good amount of consideration. What's more is that we tend to prioritise our considerations based on the rules that our minds have been given by our parents and ones that we have developed throughout our lifetime.

These attitudes given to us and developed by us subconcsiously give us a bias in our judgement of the appearance of everything in our experience of our lives.

These biases affect our emotions and are constantly revising the program in our brains. These constant revisions caused by our judgements and made by our minds constantly affect our future judgements while being infinitely linked to those of our past.

genesis

What has this to do with appearance? These biases of judgment make our experience of this world heavily slanted and biased. We think entirely in the subjective, not objective. Most of the time anyway. That is why cannabis is illegal. Smoking it allows the mind to stand back and question the origin of things and the big picture. It encourages questioning and skepticism. This is unacceptable, even dangerous to a totalitarian society. Fascism has been creeping into our society...but that is a different subject. But the reason it is being so badly portrayed in the media is that it expands the mind. It begins to help us break down our invisible barriers of subjective interpretation based on physical appearance only. Never judge a book by its cover has become a forgotten moral in these times. But it doesn't have to stay forgotten. If we look at the events, emotions, people, thoughts and deeds of others in this way of non-judgment we see things very differently and begin to enjoy things for what they are really, good or bad - better still, it has allowed me to be thankful that even the possibility that these experiences even exist at all.

As the mayans measured consciousness they understood that the days of the long count- the universal or prophetic calendar - had their meaning imparted to them by the days of the personal calendar. These days could be broken down into single combinations of 1 of 13 intentions and 1 of the 20 aspects of creation presented to them. The power of this understanding is that we literally create the meaning that we apply to our days and so our lives based on the constant changing of our intentions that are responses to the aspects of creation we view daily. These people had the power to understand and guide their destiny by understanding this. This opens an Aladdin's cave of possibility in the mind. Full of magic and wonder.

Is this really possible?

Interpretation.......

2008-03-13T20:06:00.002Z

Everything is relative. This has been proved algebraically by one A Einstien. Everything that we experience can be dissected a billion times and proven both wrong and right dependent on how you look at things. Interpretation (not appearance) is everything and relativity has shown us that, not only do we not appreciate the full extent of the magic of our lives but that it is both as logical as we like or as wondrous and random as we can imagine. The fact is that it is neither. but by being neither it is both. How can this be? The use of language is what prevents us from comprehending the limitless bounds of our imagination and being. Eventually we will develop a method to communicate like bees and instead of sending distress calls, messages of hope and reassurance can be the money of humanity. instead of worthless paper and ego. The divisiveness caused in our minds by having or not having money and the impact in has on our lives is so monstrous that we don't even notice the way it infects every level of our society. It's a disease. But like everything Else it is relative. It can be used for a good purpose but the vast majority of the time it isn't. We tend to spend it on things that further our ability to stay asleep. We use it as an excuse to deceive ourselves into thinking that all those people who told us that our dreams were just dreams and we never fulfil them were right. To fight these people and their intimidation and ridicule of us is an admirable thing. Supertramp said it ;

"Dreamer, nothing but a dreamer"

They kill our dreams at school and make us accept a career and focusing our whole potential into one idea, one mentality and to ask no questions. Meanwhile they ply us with products and news and info that clouds our judgement and destroys our confidence and dreams for the future. They try to make us feel helpless and small and worthless. But not for long, everything is relative and depends completely on our interpretation and the way we view things - as an opportunity or a problem..............

I'm a dreamer.......but i'm not the only one......

It's everywhere this feeling............

2008-03-07T13:44:00.002Z

touch me, take me to that other place,
teach me, i know im not a hopeless case

Beautiful day - U2

Everyone should see this place for themselves...................................cos this is how it makes you feel.............

2008-03-07T13:01:00.002Z

I first heard this song during the hardest part of my life. The deepest and most difficult things in my life are blossomming into fantastic ideas and emotions that make me love my life and everyone and thing that is in it...........I love you sally.........

I saw your face
Elegant and tired
Cut up from the chase
Still I so admired
Bloodshot your smile
Delicate and wild
Give me she wolf style, Rip right thru me

[Pre-chorus] Silveretta the jets of a lifetime
Go and get her ive got her on my mind
Nothing better, the feeling is so fine
Simply put I saw your love stream flow

[Chorus] Come on baby 'cause cause there's no name for
Give it up and I got what I came for!
Universally speaking,
Take it back and you make me nervous
Nothing better then love and service
Universally speaking, I
Win in the long run

I saw your crime
Dying to get high
Two of a kind
Beats all hands tonight
[Pre chorus]

[Chorus]

[Pre Chorus]

The most beautiful thing about the hardship of this life is that we all win in the long run.................

"want, want, want, want, want more do you?"

Red hot chilli peppers.........

The change

2008-03-07T10:50:00.006Z

Everyone should be feeling the changes by now. The coming of shiva, the destroyer of worlds will be showing as a breakdown of a system or a relationship, at work or at home. Things must be broken down to be built anew in the coming sixth world of the mayan calendar. Skeptics would argue that this has been happening for years! And in one aspect they would be right because in a sense this has always been happening, it's just that we haven't seen this rate of change before. The rate at which you will be forced, by the filtering down of world events into your daily life, to make new decisions and face more difficult options will increase and increase faster until you either stop actioning your thoughts and wishes or you go mad. Thinking the way most of us think now will not prevent us from ANY suffering that is to come. That is why I view these as wonderful times. Even though parts of both mine and sally's family will refuse to get involved because they think the idea is ludicrous that we can control our own reality, not just our lives. This is the point where even your most beloved ones think you have lost the plot entirely. Understandably so.

But this idea of changing the world isn't new people. Because you have never fully been informed of what really happens to people who speak out against what is happening to them you always assume that the people just didn't want this 'freedom' to happen. That life without a job and a career and the respect of your peers is pointless and contrary to everything you are taught by your community and by your schools and hospitals and government. People's power to make their own decisions has been so far removed from their psyche that the first question everyone asks when i ask people why they go to work is;

"who would take care of us and run the country without a government?"

This is the problem. We are absolutely convinced without a doubt that we can't do without these monsters. But let me ask you something. If you were in charge of millions of people's personal data would you lose it in the post? Would you send your sons and daughters to a foreign country to steal their resources? Would you happily kill someone else if it meant you could have that car you always wanted?If the answer to these questions is no, then why do you let other people do it on your behalf? Would you make it against the law for public officials and representatives to lie to the people and other representatives? Some would ask whether that isnt already illegal. But those people are still dozing in the twilight of the 'free world' that hasn't really ever existed since the signing of the American declaration of independence. They would have us believe that every lie that is told, every secret that is preserved under 'national security', every death of either a British or foreign citizen is either an accident (oops!) or necessary for the preservation of the united kingdom. Which after all protects us from the evils of the likes of bin laden and other crazy invisibles that only they can see around the world.

If all of this actually makes you angry, well, good. Because you should be. We should be angry that our dogs can't freely go to the toilet without some blind, crazy, asleep council worker threatening to have you prosecuted. I fancy writing to the council again to ask them this:

If it is such an illegal and horrible act to let my dog do his business on a patch of green land where i live, how do they possibly control the obviously vast amounts of shit generated by birds, ducks, squirrels, seagulls, stray dogs and cats, etc? The so-called laws in this country only do one real thing. They lay the groundwork and foundation bedrock for more sophisticated incursions upon yours and my freedom so that eventually it will be illegal to think anything that isn't listed in the rulebook. Everyone thinks that this is scaremongering and fantasy. These people should ask themselves something. If there isn't a global conspiracy to enslave and suppress the real human abilities of people on this world then why do all the people who really demand and rally for change either shut up very quickly, don't get any publicity or are simply drowned out by very curiously timed incidents of public tragedy. the ones in a position to actually change the world do not stay alive very long to see their dreams happen. In fact, none of the people who been assassinated have any lasting effect on history save the sentiments of the society at the time that live on in people's memory. In that sense they and their dream are still alive. Some would argue that these people were killed by fanatics or madmen or people who represented huge swathes of other people who disagreed with their views. What a joke! Which huge swathes of people in the electorate wouldn't want real freedom? Hmmmm..........

The most simple and devastating fact about your daily life is that, throughout it, in every way, shape and form, you are told WHAT to think, instead of HOW to think. Anyone who disagrees should have a little think about what they've learned today and try to figure out whether their opinions are actually theirs or not. Their first reaction will be a defensive 'of course my opinions are my own - are you saying i'm stupid?'. To even contemplate these ideas is offensive to most people. That's why i haven't got any 'friends'. Nobody wants to talk about this. Only those closest to me are brave enough to confront these questions. The rest prefer to 'occupy their minds' with the exciting falsehoods of what they laughingly call the 'real world'. The truth is that your opinion and the opinion of everyone else is being slowly manufactured, not consulted. Next time you pick up the metro on the bus ask yourself why there exists a free newspaper. In a world where 'nothing comes for free' there is an odd little newspaper sat on every bus in birmingham. Who reads these papers? Not the elite my friends. How many successful business men get the bus to work? Once you start being ready to ask these questions you will then look at the content of these papers in a different light. I am not asking you to prepare to go out on the streets and give up your jobs and submit to a chaotic world where nothing is predictable. This will happen anyway whether we like it or not. It will be presented to us by creation. I am not asking anyone to 'believe' what i'm saying. Belief is a self-defeating term. To believe something is nowhere near enough. Genuine understanding ultimately negates the need for ANY BELIEF SYSTEM.

I am simply asking that at some point you may just consider, even if only for a single second, that what you think you understand and 'know', everything that you have experienced, every ounce of pain and happiness and every desire for anything that you have ever had and anything you might have learned, every note of music and every memory of everything you have lived to see may just be a distorted reflection of your true self that you are watching with ever increasing excitement. To see what happens next, to see when you will attain your true goal of happiness. The mind is a tool that we use to see and understand and predict the world. IT is not the self. The self is the part of you and me that consciously or unconsciously uses the mind to understand the world it lives in and experiences. We can easily live in a world dominated by up and down and left and right, right and wrong but the truth is inescapable. What is the truth? We all know it really, it is just that we choose to bury it deep deep down because it is so beautiful yet so frightening. Some people have buried it so far that it will take them a further 100 lifetimes to realise. It is not down to anyone else to tell you this truth. You must realise it yourself for it to have any power. The vedics called it the unstruck sound. The potential of the universe. To grasp what this may look and feel like takes time to dedicate your thoughts to and have the desire to really understand what is happening. This process has the potential to upset and anger you, yet the moment you realise that you and the entire world around you has more potential than you could ever imagine, those feelings will be lost and replaced by sincere gratitude for your life and everything that has, is and will be contained in your experience of this world. The thing that i most like about this philosophy is that it transcends any accepted view of god or nature or purpose or time or meaning or words or thoughts or feelings or intentions. It is all encompassing, all loving and all grateful. You will not be a follower or a devotee, a pilgrim or parishioner. You will be free to be you. A truly amazing thing.

In the seventies John Lennon wrote a song called working-class hero:

As soon as your born they make you feel small,

By giving you no time instead of it all,

Till the pain is so big you feel nothing at all,

A working class hero is something to be, A working class hero is something to be.

They hurt you at home and they hit you at school,

They hate you if you're clever and they despise a fool,

Till you're so fucking crazy you can't follow their rules,

A working class hero is something to be, A working class hero is something to be.

When they've tortured and scared you for twenty odd years,

Then they expect you to pick a career,

When you can't really function you're so full of fear,

A working class hero is something to be, A working class hero is something to be.

Keep you doped with religion and sex and TV,

And you think you're so clever and classless and free,

But you're still fucking peasents as far as I can see,

A working class hero is something to be, A working class hero is something to be.

There's room at the top they are telling you still,

But first you must learn how to smile as you kill,

If you want to be like the folks on the hill,

A working class hero is something to be. A working class hero is something to be.

If you want to be a hero well just follow me, If you want to be a hero well just follow me.

They really couldn't have this guy shouting this in the streets and fighting them in court could they? The day he died was a great tragedy for the people of this world. If only the guy could explain himself.......................maybe we shouldn't call him mark chapman, maybe we should call him Alice?

"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see."

It's time to wake up and realise that we all live in wonderland. That everything is through the looking glass ( a reference interestingly used by kevin costner in JFK), the rabbit hole is never ending. If you have followed this with keen eyes and a clear mind - welcome to the unreal world!!

the future

2008-03-06T12:08:00.005Z

These are wonderful times. The burden of suffering that everyone feels from time to time will be lifting in the next few years. It's not going to feel like it is because terrible things will have to happen for us all to realise the reality of what is happening. I will keep getting crazy bills from mad companies creating more debt for me out of the blue and more wars will be announced and created. Bush is busy setting up chavez for 'funding terrorism' and using the now long blurred distinction between the 'aggressor' and the 'defender' to further de-stabilise regions and create fear among the populations of the world. This insults the emotions of many who believe it is the people, us, me who control mine/thier own lives. I always think of an old friend of mine who seemed always to be critical of others, always questioning events and the reality behind the news. I thought he was a bit tapped but i left jail with one thing on my mind. Happiness. global happiness, as a possibility. I've always been looking for it and it is coming. He would always say that 'the revolution is coming, i'm tellin ya'. I didn't know what he meant until recently. The confusion comes from the word revolution. People assume that this will be some sort of uprising because of the way revolutions are portrayed in the media. Links to violent deaths and chaos are made subliminally. This is not how any change in the world is made possible. violence is not and never has been the answer. I know now that i am not my job or my belongings. I'm not the food that i eat or the music that i listen to. I am not a man or a thing or person or anything else with a divisive adjective. Some people call these nouns. Who would want anything more than to exist in peace and at peace with the world. To have shelter and food and company?. Or without company? The reason why most people do not feel that this is possible are worried about security. Crime and the most vicious acts committed by people against other people make us all fear for our safety. So for our own safety we need locks and bolts and cars and alarms and insurance and a job to pay for it all and because we work and we don't trust eachother it is all justified. As is judgment of others and the punishing of those who have wronged us. Humanity is changing. I mean that as a description of what is within us all. It exists inside billions of people on the planet but is controllable by us all individually too. All we have to do is change the way we think about things. We need to learn to understand things for what they are. Instead of grading others and everything else on thier/its usefullness to us as an individual - how they fit ino our own plans. Millions die in africa because they are no use so are of no value. Millions have died in iraq in the name of security and the protection of our values - which everyone knows to be false. Intersets is a more accurate word, something far more questionable. Millions suffer depression and billions addiction to something - if only to thier life of distraction from the truth. If only we could explain all this with one idea.......

Alice: Alice in Wonderland Quotes:

I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see.

I haven't seen this film for many years. It was a magical thing to watch as a kid. Full of curiosity and possibility. The influences it has had on films like the matrix is obvious and wonderful. Unfortunately folks, the idea that we can experience the magical totality of happiness has now been suppressed in the global mind and our days are filled with whys and what ifs and worry.

Am i successful?

Do i look good?

Do i earn enough money?

Am i too fat?

What's on telly tonight?

what's for dinner?

How am i gonna get through tomorrow?

Is it worth it?

What do i really want?

People who are honest with themselves will understand that this list of questions is infinite. And that they have probably subjected themselves to nearly all of them while in the waking state and the dreaming. While some are mundane and time consuming, some hurt to ask and cause massive conflicts in the mind and the tendency to avoid situatuations with a distraction such as the internet or the telly. You probably think that you watch tv because you like it, like i have in the past. But ask yourself this: what would you do if you didn't have a tv? A stereo? an ipod? a laptop? a car? a job? a life?

That is just it. You would have a life. A life full of nothing......But why would i want that? Right?

To have none of these distractions would mean that you would be left with your thoughts and those alone. How many of us are really comfortable with our thoughts? Are your thoughts negative or positive most of the time? How often do you praise instead of criticise? Support not undermine? Are you satsfied with what you have achieved so far? People who can look proudly at their children will think them a great achievement. This is the ultimate giving act. To give life. But all children are wonderful because they are a chance for the world to change. To add another perspective to humanity. Life is not given to them by us, but by creation itself. This is a difficult concept because that implies vaguely that reality we live in is designed or created.................

Corporate monsters.....

2008-03-01T11:40:00.003Z

I have to be careful here i reckon.......but i had a bill this morning from my power company that essentially says that, contrary to thier description of the necessity of having a credit meter, I find myself £300 MORE in debt than when the meter was fitted 3 months ago. Does anyone else have to read that a few times like i had to? Let me get this straight. I pay for my electricity as i use it, combined with a charge of £11.50 per week to pay the arrears on the account balance. This is what they told me 3 months ago. Today they have told me that I have credited the meter with £340 - odd but have used £692 worth of electricity!!! How is this possible? If i have a meter then suerly it would show a debt of £350 and not let me use electricity until i have credited the meter with a sufficient amount? According to this bill what i thought was the purpose of the meter simply isn't the case. Yes they keep a tab on how much i've credited the meter (still to be cross- referenced) but the amount of electricity that i have allegedly ACTUALLY USED is generated by the company in an office somewhere. ?They assure me that the bill is based on an up to date and accurate meter reading. The problem is that my meter says i'm in credit! I have a problem here. I also don't think i'm the only one. For the first time though i did'nt get angry with someone i couldn't talk to or gain any transparent explanation from (i've tried that before) I laughed out loud at the obviously disgusting practises of these companies. This means that i can no longer transparently predict or budget for the cost of the electiricity that i'm using because the final decision on how much it costs is always down to the company, not the meter!!!!. This is nothing less than absolutely astonishing!!

Very indicative though of the obvious and now legitimate intentions of these companies. We live in times people where deceit is now legal if it is done under a corporate name and logo. This company has removed my right to visibly and logically control how much electricity i use. Which i think is tantamount to them being able to simply generate a random number to insure that i remain in debt with this company permanently. This is real, and to panic and shout and get angry is the wrong move. The beautiful thing is that it is only really a problem if i want to repair the past damage done to my "credit rating" which is actually my potential debt rating. They make out that it is a bad thing to be in debt and that you won't be able to get anywhere without a good rating yet debt is exactly what they are generating on a national and international scale. The majority of people think that their taxes pay for their public transport and schools, hospitals etc. This is one of the biggest lies sold to the British people. Listen to me! British! Even I get involved in the fairytale sometimes. It's getting worse, but for a very good reason...........

2008-02-29T15:30:00.001Z

But the queen has no real power right? she's just a harmless elderly lady who epitomises the british ideals of society.............Doesn't she just make speeches and visits?

?

Stranger than fiction......

2008-02-29T13:09:00.002Z

The peculiar thing about the last year or so is that I've pretty much reversed my approach to things. I've stopped focusing only on the negative. It's still there because I live in the world controlled by duality. Good and evil, right and wrong etc....The difference now is that I can use the positive aspects of what i know to counter the negatives. The thing though that has stayed exactly the same is the feeling of separateness or isolation. It seems that even when you speak of nothing but constructive debate and development you can still be viewed negatively because others do not identify with what you are attempting to get across. As soon as Sally began to post pictures and quotes that were not focused on her image or what she thought of other people her list of friends changed. People in her past stopped posting messages, stopped calling her, stopped arranging meets etc. This isn't a negative poke at anyone, simply an observation. People have also stopped trying to be part of our lives. Not with any selfish or bad intentions, just because we seem more stable and satisfied and people probably don't see the need to try to help us. Help is always welcome and we couldn't have done the many things we have without the continued support of people around us. It's just that by using that support in the right way we've been able to become more and more independent. What has this got to do with the dharmic way? Well Dharma is existence without bias or opposing factors, without limits or language, without definition. This is only possible through the path of enlightenment. It will never begin without the desire to have it or experience it, like everything else in life. People whose only desire in life is to stay the same will never find or become themselves, they will always be looking for something that escapes them. If they are looking for this thing outside of themselves they will always be altering their lives through physical action leading to karmic debt, forever trapped in the re-incarnating system of their lives. Until they are faced with a choice so blatantly obvious that they can't help choosing the positive, constructive, fulfilling action. To be faced with consciously choosing another way is often a paralysing, upsetting situation. To recognise it as an opportunity for change is a glimpse of reality itself. A glimpse of the power that exists in your mind that can easily be transferred to reality - just as I am typing this paragraph. All it takes is the desire. We have these choices presented to us all of the time, news articles, music, random events in or lives, unemployment, injuries, accidents. All of them are mere opportunities to change our view point. Your view point is the only real point of your existence. It cannot be located physically. In a place. Or a time, because all of the thoughts you think are a passage of memories or desires or intentions that flow from their origin in your view point to a place in the future that is linked infinitely to the past experiences of your life. This is how we make judgments, how we dream, how we behave - all are linked to a thought process that has no purely physical origin. Some people may disagree, as is their right. They possess their own view point. The majority of these objections though come mainly from anger at what i am alleging to be true and frustration at their inability to communicate their ideas comprehensively. The result is either dis-interest, abusive insults, the classic method of pure ridicule or just avoidance of the subject. While this has frustrated and insulted me in the past, i have come to understand that other people are not me. The simplest of statements are the most profound. Often though, the most profound can be interpreted as offensive and threatening. This is how you come to be viewed by those around you if you dare (with your obviously uneducated, immature, underdeveloped, young mind and intellect) question any of the established moral rules of your society. There are many words for this behaviour now.

Dissident
Activist
Separatist
Unpatriotic
Heretic
Rebel
Trouble maker
Anarchist
Hostile
Insubordinate
Freak
Loser

The most damaging and disgusting of them all is this one,

Terrorist

Once branded as this or viewed as this (even though the LEGAL definition is atrociously vague)
you are effectively allowed to be removed from society and have any rights you think you have removed. This happens all of the time to people who are not muslim, let alone, not terrorists. This no longer a focus on muslim extremism or fundamentalism, but dissent in general - don't believe it? Keep walking when a community support police officer asks you what you are doing. You will quickly find yourself in a confrontation with a provocative, angry, offensive, hostile, threatening individual who will stop at no excuse to blatantly enforce the idea upon you that, no matter what his/her motivation or no matter what your so-called offense, he/she has the power to arrest you for absolutely no real reason.

The beauty of anti-terror/ism legislation is that it leaves the discretion of the CONTENT of the offense down to the legislative executive. Not the people. Then again, anyone who has ever considered life under a monarchy free an independent is deluding themselves entirely.............

After India.........

2008-02-29T11:18:00.003Z

India was a trip made during a period of mine and sally's counselling sessions and my own personal ones with martin. It was a struggle financially but we made it work, and have been doing so ever since. We came back slightly more materialistic at first, especially with the carving of lakshmi that we bought back with us. This caused a bit of hardship in the next few months as the problems escalated slightly and we came to a point where we had to decide what we wanted from each other. These are conversations that very few people, no matter how close they tell themselves they are, ever have and we started to feel very lucky and grateful that we have each other. When we started to address what was really lacking between us and began to remember to remind ourselves of the good things in our life we started to look at things totally differently. We realised that we really didn't want to be like everybody else. We didn't share the same morals/standards that others thought were acceptable. We began to slowly influence those around us gently and honestly so that we could make our point without hurting other people's feelings. This was very important. We began to grow as people, not just part of a family that was unofficially guided by principles that were never our own. With June's help we began to see ourselves as a self sufficient unit operating under it's own autonomy. We spent a significant part of 2007 thinking and doing for ourselves. Alot of people will assume that this is no different to what they do every day and that they have always been free and independent. I'm sorry to say that mass delusion is a growing infection in society. If it were true that we are all free and independent then why the ridicule of others? Why the condemnation or judgment of others based on nothing but the shallowest of standards? Why the mirror in the bathroom? The TV? The list goes on and on. There are whole industries dedicated to 'fashion', 'beauty' and 'cosmetics'. The media tell you who is fat and who is thin...they provide you all with the very definitions of all the ideas and views in your life.....without you ever really knowing. It is a beautiful thing to recognise and be able to change this. If you don't think that I'm right then why don't you try to live in your house for 3 days without the TV, radio or a mirror. The very idea of questioning the right and wrong behind any news story in the public domain is repugnant to the majority of so-called educated people. I must have appeared to those around me to never be able to leave the news alone. Because I didn't like making small talk or discussing only what they wanted to I must have seemed very negative - particularly as the subjects that give us the rare opportunities to change our view point are ones with negative effects or circumstances. I learned to not take people's rejection of me personally and this helped me exponentially. Martin helped me understand that my mind is my own. That i have complete control, whether i like it or not! We all wallow in the past from time to time and make bad decisions and seek immediately to blame others for our problems. But not me, not any more. I realise that the way that i speak of how i think ow may seem incomprehensible to some and pure nonsense to many. Thankfully I don't have to deal with these people personally who might simply shrug off my comments based on a deeply subjective point of view. Objectivity is a gift that has to be developed and requires an open mind and heart to flourish. I once said to a guy i worked with that there is no point looking with your eyes if your mind is closed. You simply cannot see.

Michael shermer

2008-02-28T16:20:00.006Z

'Talk given at TED February 2006 by Michael Shermer. Very funny.' This was the title of the film posted by the person who uploaded the video in the link below.

I thought that it indicated the stance of his audience. The judgment of the content of his lecture was based in this person's view on it's level of 'funniness'. I admit that i've only seen one person's comment but the first one i found suited the purpose of expoundng the validity of this skeptic society's view of anything they term non-sense or non-science. Irony is everywhere. This guy has become exactly what he is preaching against. This is how religion both inspires and corrupts at the same time. Religion is a 'do as i sy not as i do' ideology. Anyone remember Ted Haggard?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMHB4_tSOf0&feature=related

His arrogant persistence of his faith here changed to this............a year later......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbCRUucI1zk

These people are the 'leaders' of the 'free world'.

Some people would claim that GW Bush and Tony Blair are not like that........are they?

Skepticism

2008-02-28T15:10:00.003Z

I have just had to watch the video listed in the links below by michael shermer from the skeptic society. To clarify the validity of the presentation this is the definition of a skeptic..........

Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - Cite This Source - Share This
skep·tic /ˈskɛptɪk/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[skep-tik] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
a person who questions the validity or authenticity of something purporting to be factual.
2.
a person who maintains a doubting attitude, as toward values, plans, statements, or the character of others.
3.
a person who doubts the truth of a religion, esp. Christianity, or of important elements of it.
4.
(initial capital letter) Philosophy.
a.
a member of a philosophical school of ancient Greece, the earliest group of which consisted of Pyrrho and his followers, who maintained that real knowledge of things is impossible.
b.
any later thinker who doubts or questions the possibility of real knowledge of any kind. –adjective
5.
pertaining to skeptics or skepticism; skeptical.
6.
(initial capital letter) pertaining to the Skeptics.

As you can see from the definition, being a skeptic or skeptical has nothing to do with obtaining or promoting MORE factual opposing theories or arguments. To be a skeptic, all you have to do is question the validity or authenticity of something purporting to be factual.

That's it! Full stop.

You don't have to provide any competing factual evidence of why the argument or idea or theory is innaccurate, just question it. That pretty much makes us all skeptics...........but if you listen to what this guy is saying, ridicule alone is enough to 'de-bunk' the ideas in question. Not only is this seriously flawed logically but is complete hypocrisy that totally escapes him and his audience! A classic example of the dominating idea of western society. Anyone who steps out of line with regard to accepted thought or dogma can be silenced with ridicule alone. Reason and logic does not ever really have to be involved. It is enough that the person's feelings are hurt enough to make his/her opinion dissappear. This is how we all keep eachother in line. Yet he claims to be a scientist! This guy is insane. The question you should be asking yourself is how much like this guy am i? When was the last time i made fun of someone because i thought that my peers would join me in my ridicule because what the person said was so against what we all commonly 'believe'? How many times have you done this? How many times have you seen it happen?

I've experienced this ridicule myself, sometimes from the people closest to me....

This is the sad but enlightening truth about how we all keep eachother imprisoned in a single ideological mindset that never originates in our own mind. It is part of majority perception that we are convinced is true just because we've heard it so many times or that a sufficient number of others believe it. Once this is understood it's possible to stand back and think about what you genuinely understand about the world and what you take on board from the mass opinion alone. The latter, as you will see, far outweighs the former. This plants a seed in your mind that will eventually yearn for the light. That will stop at nothing to fulfill all of it's potential - just like an orchid does, any plant for that matter. this fear of ridicule is what prevents all of us from talking about our real feelings and opinions, which in turn stops all of us from finding out who we really are. ask anyone what they think about the iraq war to see the walls of this prison spring up between people............

India

2008-02-27T16:27:00.002Z

India was what really did it for me. I thought i understood the scale of suffering in the world through the imagining and language of numbers and statistics. Nothing prepared me for the drive from the airport in Delhi to Agra. I have never been gripped by such stunning beauty and tragedy at the same time. The drive to and back from Agra was the best part of it for me. It meant that i could see for myself what lack and loss and suffering really meant. It helped me to put mine into perspective. I cried the first night there because i couldn't believe that it was possible for humanity to allow these conditions to exist. How can it be that we have running water but are unsatisfied, yet the kids i saw weren't even clothed and had smiles on their faces that were full of hope for the future. Gratitude was the thing that hit me about India. They were grateful for what they had instead of depressed about what they didn't. Then again I have always been like this.......things that made me happy also hurt me. The beauty of the world hurts me in a way that makes me unable to discern between whether it's joy or sorrow that i feel. I cry when i'm deeply happy. I'm learning to be grateful. For everything. My life, my ability to learn, the sunshine that i saw today and the stream of wonderful creation that i witness every day. The thing i like is that i now realise that that is ALL that it is. Complex yet simple. Beautiful in every way that that the word can imply. Controlable yet unpredictable. Chaotic and elemantary. The harder you look the less you see. Sherlock Holmes once asked doctor Watson how many times he had climbed holmes's stairs to his flat, "why an untold amount of times holmes".....was the reply, "then tell me Watson, how many stairs are there?"
" well i'm afraid i couldnt say"
" ah" said Holmes " you see, yet you do not observe"..........

There's a big difference.

The beginning

2008-02-27T15:55:00.004Z

My entire life, like many billions of others, has so far been an immense struggle in my mind between what i have and what i desire to have. We all want different things - but we all want. The difference between the wanting and having i term what i "need". Some of us have witnessed almost unspeakable things. There is immense pain within many of us and a sense of lack. I described it to Martin as loss. Just an aching, overriding feeling of loss. It's deep and painful and it pushes me. Pushes me on to other things. Sometimes it's been so painful that I wanted to die, yet the sensation of this pain made me so angry that i would simultaneously attempt to fight it, striving to overcome the depression and negativity. To survive in a world that presented itself to me as nothing but unpredictability and fear i felt forced to develop calculating and pre-emptive tendencies that hid my vulnerability and fear wth pride, anger and confidence. This all hid a very low level of self-esteem that would manifest as pure anger and depression when i attempted to numb the pain with the drug of choice. None of the ones i have tried work. Even caffiene makes me unstable and irritable. I think that in those days I struggled and struggled and struggled to communicate with the world and i felt further anger and frustration because I knew i was a bright lad, that i could quickly grasp even the strangest of concepts or ideas yet i was trapped behind bars that i coulnd't see or feel or sense in any way. I was convinced that science and practical application of rules was the best way for me to apply my logical, calculating brain to the world around me. The problem was that scientific literature is of high volume even on the simplest of subjects. There was never anyone around me who really shared this view at all. Wanting to know who i was and how the world REALLY worked was a lonely place to be in. And always has been. It still is. The extraordinary thing is that the things that i have been learning recently have always been gnawing at my mind. The three hundred or so books that i have at home (mostly unread!) are all cropping up in my learning through other avenues and the links are consolidating into pretty much the same subject. From Bill Hicks to the dalai lama, Conan doyle to deepak chopra, everything is coming together for me. It brings deep relief from the sadness and regretful loss that i have held onto for so many years. I wouldn't change any part of my life now, nothing. Every ounce of pain and regret was worth it to understand what i do now. To have what i have now. A chance. A chance to realise myself in the way that i truly exist. True experience of myself.

perplexed?

2008-02-22T15:09:00.002Z

For those genuinely interested in who they might actually be, why the world doesn't make sense to them and why 'life' is such a struggle i hope in the near future to publish on here a list of subjects and sites where access to helpful (but not always pleasant) information can be obtained. I am not a self-declared prophet, clairvoyant or know - it all! I can't ultimately show anyone how to achieve what they want from this life or explain to them how i came to understand my path, not with speech and language anyway! That is sacred to each and every one of us and cannot be communicated in logic and language. We must all find our own way that doesn't harm others, while helping to fulfill each and every being along with ourselves to achieve conscious realisation of the ultimate unity that links us all. I will try to cover as many subjects as possible under this holistic one as clearly as possible,

Namaste......

The shumann resonance

2008-02-22T14:59:00.000Z

Time is actually speeding up (or collapsing). For thousands of years the Schumann Resonance or pulse (heartbeat) of Earth has been 7.83 cycles per second, The military have used this as a very reliable reference. However, since 1980 this resonance has been slowly rising. It is now over 12 cycles per second! This means there is the equalivant of less than 16 hours per day instead of the old 24 hours. Another intrepetation is - we, or rather Consciousness have been down this same road seven times before over the last 16 billion years. Each of these cycles of Creation runs 20 times faster than the last one. The same amount of Creation is paced 20 times tighter. This is why time seems to be going so fast. It is not "time" but Creation itself that is accelerating.

An example of an insanely closed mind.......

2008-02-22T13:54:00.003Z

I sometimes roam the city centre of where i live in the hope of learning something from someone that i didn't know before. I made the acquaintance of two guys that were trying to arrange a demonstration about global warming. The shorter of the two guys handed me a leaflet detailing the events and opinions of the organisers. I felt that these two guys seemed to be quite well educated and that we might be able to exchange information intelligently. I don't think that i have ever been more disappointed! I told the guy that handed me the leaflet that i would consider attending and would definitely spread the word if he could do something for me. He agreed and i asked him to google "mayan calendar 2012". He seemed a little put out by this suggestion but was happy to have me help in return for such a simple promise. But just as i began to explain why his colleague rounded on us both and asked what i was saying..........without letting me finish any of the sentences i attempted to speak he exclaimed "that's ridiculous - there's no evidence of any of this it's preposterous!" I refrained from laughing my ass off at him for being such a naive yet "educated" hypocrite. He was asking the public to "realise" that global warming was a man made threat to our entire existence ( quite an ambitious and unaccepted view at the time) yet wouldn't even let me SPEAK to his colleague regarding the commonly accepted fact that the mayan calendar is one of - if not the - most accurate calendars ever conceived and is still in use today. This guy's level of educated ignorance astonished me. At first i felt defeated and perplexed but then i realise now that the guy (like 99% of others that Ive mentioned similar things to) had made his mind up about me before i finished the first sentence. He actually said that it was a waste of time talking to me! He really didn't grasp the irony of the situation either. Poor bloke. He likes to make out to the uneducated masses that he has something vastly important to say but when a guy with (obviously) no money to his name and a beard and broken glasses actually tries to discuss bigger, possibly more important subjects than global warming he reacts with insults and astonishing arrogance. I really wish that i kept the leaflet he gave me but i gave it back to his friend who was gutted that i wouldn't even read the literature. Why would i ever attempt to read anything printed by such an egotistically arrogant human being? One who so obviously thinks his classical education entitles him to the authority to insult and cut short another human being trying to make a point. This is a classic example of the yes - sir, no-sirs claiming sole authority to debate things of global, social or political importance. The layman is totally at the mercy of these institutionalised "educated" repeaters of policy and information that is actually mis-information and at times dis-information. They pretend to be revolutionaries and brokers of social and political change. This guy had clearly never heard of John Hagelin. yet was free to ridicule me and force me to abandon my objective. I used to take offense at such things but know now that he was a manifestation of my mind that convinced me through his crucially faulty logic that i was on the right path. The quote from Einstein on the previous entry is very apt.

Consicous co-creation

2008-02-22T13:08:00.003Z

Is it ludicrous to believe that what you imagine to happen can actually come true? The exponents of so called reality would probably fall over laughing at the idea that someone believes this. Those of a religious inclination will recoil in horror at the suggestion - forever condemning me as a heretic. I'd probably lose my hands in Saudi Arabia for even thinking this odd idea. But that is just the point.......it's not odd. It happens ALL OF THE TIME! I imagine typing a sentence and a few seconds later I see it in reality. I control my physical reality with my thoughts alone. Thoughts cannot be quantified in physical reality. It is logical therefore to assume that something exists outside of physical reality - isn't it? The overwhelming scope of some of the things i have come to learn about my life and the possible directions that it may take astonish me at every interval. I am grateful to be here. This idea that I hope to share with the world and be able to explain encompasses all of human experience. ALL OF IT. I'd like to call it the theory of everything but that has already been achieved by John Hagelin PHD. I live in a world where science has began to encompass spirituality and mysticism. The age old teachings of jesus, the vedas, the egyptians, gnostics and many more are quite quickly taking on actual positions of validity in my mind. Positions that seem to fit solidly with all others. The fact that the unified field theory has been achieved and realised Einstien's ambitions seems to me to be a wonderful era in human conscious awareness. This rather unknown fact is only so because we choose what we listen to and understand. The established powers are not going to publicly announce that the millenia-old search for a scientific explanation of our reality is over. Some of the biggest questions of our civilisation are soon to be answered. A coincidence that the mayan fifth world finished in 1987 - the sixth beginning in 2012, meaning that we are currently between worlds - a period of revealing of the truth or Apocalypse? In October 2011 we enter the universal cycle of consciousness.........

I think we will all soon see something that has never even been contemplated by the majority of western society...........

This aint a new idea folks.......

2008-02-21T19:08:00.003Z

Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent.It takes a touch of genius - and a lot of courage - to move in the opposite direction.(Albert Einstein)

Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.(Leonardo da Vinci)

(Aristotle, 340BC) The first philosophy (Metaphysics) is universal and is exclusively concerned with primary substance. ... And here we will have the science to study that which is just as that which is, both in its essence and in the properties which, just as a thing that is, it has. ... That among entities there must be some cause which moves and combines things. ... There must then be a principle of such a kind that its substance is activity.

(Gottfried Leibniz, 1646 - 1716) Reality cannot be found except in One single source, because of the interconnection of all things with one another. ... I do not conceive of any reality at all as without genuine unity. ... I maintain also that substances, whether material or immaterial, cannot be conceived in their bare essence without any activity, activity being of the essence of substance in general.

2008-02-21T18:46:00.000Z

nietzsche.....genius

2008-02-21T17:40:00.001Z

All things are subject to interpretation, whichever interpretation prevails at a given time is a function of power and not truth.

The word "Christianity" is already a misunderstanding - in reality there has been only one Christian, and he died on the Cross. Friedrich Nietzsche

In Christianity neither morality nor religion come into contact with reality at any point.

In every real man a child is hidden that wants to play.

In music the passions enjoy themselves

Insanity in individuals is something rare - but in groups, parties, nations and epochs, it is the rule

It is my ambition to say in ten sentences what others say in a whole book

Morality is the herd-instinct in the individual

On the mountains of truth you can never climb in vain: either you will reach a point higher up today, or you will be training your powers so that you will be able to climb higher tomorrow.

Ethics?

2008-02-21T15:46:00.003Z

Sally found this one...........brilliant I think. GW Bush Snr today endorsed John McCain saying "no-one is better prepared to lead our nation in these trying times than senator John McCain"

This is the cycle of ethics.......it's all over the news...right, wrong and revelations....the dossier is released this week that again de-stabilises the establishment in the public opinion of government(so it seems...) Because at the same time this is happening :

http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk/audio/2008/feb/21/norton.taylor.dossier

Strange times..........

It's just business

2008-02-20T16:36:00.002Z

When i first started to figure out who I was it struck me that the entire world is acceptably focused on one thing - business. We are all involved in it at a variety of levels, even if only a consumer. That word i found to be quite a monstrosity of a word that i began to immediately resent. Busy - ness. How can the world be entirley focused on keeping busy? Business provides us with all manner of short-term and narrow pathways to help us focus everything away from the only real question that every one of us should be asking ourselves....who am I? The vast majority of people in western "civilisations" believe themselves to be their name, address, NI number, Car, mobile phone, "style" or just the "I" in their mind......This question has always taken second place to the "what's in it for me?" of the ego. Some of us are beginning to change this focus...I just hope there is alot of us out there. If not then there soon will be.....consciousness is accelerating.......

Imagine........

2008-02-20T15:56:00.002Z

I'm becoming more and more dissatisfied with physical "reality"........it's quite a lonely place to be in when you think of the world the other way around from the commonly accepted physical appearances of people and objects and ideas. I'm trying to balance a "job" with developing my consciousness and my self. There is only a few people that i can talk to who get it too....The point of this page is to try and consolidate what i know is happening and what may be to come. I'd like to not sound like a "doomsdayer" but it's difficult. I'm not a madman who thinks that the world is out to get him. But many of the things that are to come will not be viewed as positive, constructive opportunities for us all to wake up. The poor people who won't understand why these things happen will be forever condemned to karmic life. The protest to come will hopefully encompass all of the issues but consciousness and how it affects reality is no small subject.......It is very obvious to anyone who can view the world with an open mind that all is not as it seems. The way that the news is reported is heavily biased yet fragmented so that you can't really see the whole picture. The language of news reporting is heavily loaded with designed propoganda and the average man/woman now conforms with published opinion without ever really knowing the truth . Anyone who doubts the published "truth" is deemed a trouble maker these days. Strange as it sounds i know that John McCain will win the U.S election and that the renowned Mohammed Al Fayed is nothing more than a puppet in a global game. On the surface the "news" of the past few days may seem outrageous to all the cons and neocons who read defamatory remarks and public bashing of the "royal family" with disgust and outrage.....passing Al Fayed off as a conspiracy nut who thinks the world is out to get him. If only he was wrong.........like evrything in our lives, we see, hear and understand EXACTLY what we want to and nothing like what is possible to understand.

I love you very very much........

2008-02-14T10:53:00.005Z

I'm not a follower of all these "celebrations" but you know that already........I do really really love you though Sally...alot.........hope you see this today......XXXXX

I'm not the only one.....

2008-02-14T09:45:00.005Z

It doesn't matter where you look there are people who are really unhappy. Most people haven't really got time in their lives for other people's problems have they? We've got enough of our own haven't we? The sheer scale of the problems facing the world surely mean that any effort on the part of ordinary people with not a lot of power would soon be swallowed up by the chaos and confusion of the world around us. Surely?

Well, I'm a logical man and for a long time that seemed to me like a viable response to the difficult issues that face "humanity". I've wanted for a long time now to do something for the world. It frustrates me that with trillions of sterling and dollars the problems can't be fixed. "if the government can't fix it, what chance have we got?" I used to hear that alot from people who would refuse to help the third world through anything other than comic relief. What sort of world do we live in when even the salvation of the poor majority has become comercialised? Why are people really not that bothered about the illegality of both the Iraq war and the constant persecution of the palestinians by the Zionist elite?

Bob Dylan wrote :

"how many years can a mountain exist, before it is washed to the sea?"

"how many years can some people exist, before they're allowed to be free?"

"how many times can a man turn his head, and pretend that he just doesn't see?

"the answer, my friend, is blowing in the wind, the answer is blowing in the wind"

i've always liked that song since i heard it played by a good friend of mine years ago. It's easy to see why people feel helpless or powerless against entire global systems that have been put in place over thousands of years. But i've got a feeling that this feeling of helplessness isn't helplessness at all. It comes from a deep-rooted, heavily programmed and constantly re-affirmed view that is GIVEN to all of us. Given?

Everyone that I have tried to tell this to has recoiled in horror at the idea that THEY ARE NOT IN CONTROL OF THEIR LIVES. I encounter disbelief at best, at worst people tend to begin they have more important things to think about and the conversation gets crushed and the mockery begins. In the past I have felt frustrated with a world where i cannot get across my point of view, let alone help others. Something else that struck me as a profound argument against peace (apart from the idea of anything being against peace!) was that a friend of mine argued forcefully that there will always be greed, always be corruption, always be murderers and rapist and paedophiles. I must say that at the time I couldn't argue - i didn't have the tools. I sometimes find that when i do manage to put my point across eloquently people tend to react quite aggressively, as though i'm challenging the very core of their being.....well I am. But i'm not the only one. Michael Tsarion once said in a video that the word "teacher" is synonymous with the word "threat". Try telling someone that the entire universe as they see it only exists in their brain's interpretation of electrical signals and watch how they behave. You soon find yourself in some sort of confrontation. Such a stunning and evocative song like "imagine" has also now been reduced to a royalty source and something for all the drunks to revel in while they congratulate themselves and wallow in their ultra temporary concern for the rest of the world for a few days a year. I find the whole idea of christmas these days a hypocritical and patronising affair. I'm starting to understand how David Icke feels. You soon get a shock when you begin to understand that you've been living in a very very very small box for a long long time and that there is something that exists outside of your current understanding of the world. Try telling someone that you don't celebrate the birth of Jesus at christmas - even your own family will think you are simply weird. I intend to give the cliche of "thinking outside the box" an awesome new meaning.

Everything is everything else.......

2008-02-13T11:51:00.008Z

Esoteric as it may sound, I've come to understand that many of the things I have thought about when I've tried to figure out who i am are true when I discover more about the world. The reality i live ,i have learned, is a complete illusion, hinging on the very point of my view of the rest of the world. I am convinced that these ideas are not new......

"there's nothing you can do that can't be done" John Lennon........

"nothing you can know that isn't known,
nothing you can see that isn't shown,
nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be,

its easy!

All you need is love"

Everything I am learning at the moment about how i fit into this world is consolidating.....constantly. The world temporarily starts to come into focus when you understand these things. How many people think about Beatles' songs at the same time as the relationship of ideas of Nietzsche and QED and Mandelbrot sets.....Surely there's simpler ways to view things? That's why I like eloquent phrases like the ones i have quoted. I read recently that if you looked at the universe on a small enough scale you would see an infinitely interconnected sea of particles. Quantum mechanical interpretations imply that particles are nothing more than concentrated areas of probable locations of energy. At a certain level (we lose the idea here of up and down, left and right) there is a "mesh" of existence that everything, past present and future is connected to. "past, present and future" also seem to lose meaning. This isn't scientific fantasy, it is an interpretation of a respected point of view in academic society. We've also seen that time basically behaves like the Mandelbrot set and is fractal, patterns within patterns that build upon and below each other forever. This coming age of universal consciousness may be the difference between knowing these things and experiencing all things, everywhere, forever. The problem is that you get to make a conscious choice to be involved because i think that those who haven't learned these things about themselves will be trapped in what people at the moment call the "real" world. This is the world they understand in 3D. The "physical" world. This world will be left behind by the enlightened culture to those who don't see...one governed by unimaginable torment of the soul by powers that dominate the population in all areas of "life". It exists already, the police state. It's just that the powers haven't been "enacted" yet. (troubled? visit the link, America - freedom to fascism)Nietzsche talked of the ubermensche - the over man. The next species who have shed the mind and the ego to become totally altruistic and blissful beings. He said that this transition was what "humanity" required. Hitler twisted his ideas but i think he was describing what is happening in what we call "reality". It's amazing that all of this relates to the energy centres in my body and the loss that me and sally have felt these past couple of years. Ben Fairhill wrote on his site that one of the main propulsive causes of rises in consciousness is loss. Coupled with the possibility that i may have chosen my birthday because it matched my intention and the aspect of creation that i liked, the idea leads to another possibility that i might be realising, possibly after a million lifetimes, who I am. It's a profound thing to say and i don't claim to know just yet. But i can feel it coming, maybe not even in this lifetime but soon. From Ian lungold presentation it may be that i have already chosen when i will die. Whenever that is I'm happy to know that as long as i choose the path for me, it will always be on my terms, good or bad, because the bad things in my life i have probably also created for myself (with cooperation from other souls) to learn what i know i need to to become me. it leads to an even more beautiful idea. It is possible that our baby George was something higher, choosing to be born the way he was to give us the tools to be better people. To be able to grow from the loss into conscious beings who only experience blissful love. 2006 was the 5th day of the galactic cycle of the Mayan calendar. The day of truth/awakening. 2007 was the 5th night, the building of new foundations for the changes of the future. This is exactly what me and sally were doing at this time, in retrospect. We're excited about the sixth day. If true its something that I'll always be grateful for, if not - its still a nice idea.....Martin has told me that it is well known in his field that "the more you change the more you stay the same". Ian lungold calls(ed?) it being centered. Me and Sally are getting that way, and others around us. And it's getting faster......or is it slower?

Whatever it is it's exciting!

Even if it turns out all to be nothing, the ramblings of my imagination or my mind in overdrive, the result will still be that we're all better people - and that's a good thing.......

Mandelbrot

2008-02-13T11:49:00.003Z

The Mandelbrot set is a set of points in the complex plane, the boundary of which forms a fractal. Mathematically, the Mandelbrot set can be defined as the set of complex c-values for which the orbit of 0 under iteration of the complex quadratic polynomial xn+1=xn2 + c remains bounded.[1]
Eg. c = 1 gives the sequence 0, 1, 2, 5, 26… which tends to infinity. As this sequence is unbounded, 1 is not an element of the Mandelbrot set.
On the other hand, c = i gives the sequence 0, i, (-1 + i), –i, (-1 + i), -i… which is bounded, and so it belongs to the Mandelbrot set.
When computed and graphed on the complex plane, the Mandelbrot Set is seen to have an elaborate boundary, which does not simplify at any given magnification. This qualifies the boundary as a fractal.
The Mandelbrot set has become popular outside mathematics both for its aesthetic appeal and for being a complicated structure arising from a simple definition. Benoît Mandelbrot and others worked hard to communicate this area of mathematics to the public.

2008-02-13T11:36:00.000Z

"I think it is safe to say that no one understands quantum mechanics. Do not keep saying to yourself, …… but how can it be like that, because you will go down the drain into a blind alley from which nobody has yet escaped. Nobody knows how it can be like that."

Richard Feynman

2008-02-13T11:32:00.000Z

Concepts can at best only serve to negate one another, as one thorn is used to remove another, and then be thrown away. Only in deep silence do we leave concepts behind. Words and language deal only with concepts, and cannot approach Reality.

--Ramesh Balsekar

2008-02-12T22:41:00.000Z

Whatever appears, like the stars and planets in the sky, is the display of the self-appearing attributes of intrinsic awareness in the vast expanse of ultimate nature.

-- Sogpo Tentar

2008-02-12T22:39:00.000Z

The universe is uncaused, like a net of jewels in which each is only the reflection of all the others in a fantastic interrelated harmony without end.

Ramesh Balsekar

?????

2008-02-12T17:24:00.000Z

Musharraf: Pakistan isn’t hunting Osama
January 23, 2008 · 1 Comment
“The most important thing is for us to find Osama bin Laden. It is our Number one priority and we will not rest until we find him!”
- GW Bush, September 13, 2001
“I don’t know where bin Laden is. I have no idea and I really don’t care. It’s not that important. It’s not our priority.”
- GW Bush, March 13, 2002

it only took us six months to forget about the guy they claim organised the horror that we all watched that day........what's goin on?

2008-02-09T18:28:00.001Z

I've decided to protest.......but not like the million did against the iraq war, or the thousands of monks in burma or the recent protest in London that was the biggest ever seen against the aggression of Israel. I think John Lennon was right when he said that we can't fight them with guns anymore....we have to change people's minds. It is something I can't force with anything physical - because people have proved that the opinion of mllions can be successfully suppressed and manipulated through the media alone. The media is a powerful adversary of the truth - it both dis-informs and mis-informs, while it entertains and removes people's ability to focus on their lives. So it needs to be a mixture of a little physical action and real communication that cannot be used to subvert the objective. Suggestions are welcome.......

The idea isn't yet wholly formed in my mind but it has to be something new, something that hasn't been tried. Over the next couple of years amazing things could be done with simply ideas focused on what we need to attain on this level of consciousness - ethics. Ethics is the idea of simple right and wrong, something that has been blurred by moral highground and the interest of "national security". We all know the difference between right and wrong, the problem we have is expressing it - en masse. With the availability of the mass movement of information at our fingertips, how is this possible? The mind is continually oppressed by the ego and this is what seperates us from eachother. It switches off our natural connection to eachother by asking "what's in it for me?". The ego is going extinct..........quickly. I'm not naive about the scale of what I hope will happen soon but everything that ever changes the world begins with an idea.......doesn't it?

Strange things are afoot.......

2008-02-09T17:52:00.000Z

I read a little while ago that the word "apocolypse" came from the greek "to reveal". In the mayan galactic cycle governed by ethics many things seem to be being revealed. It is a strange time when blatant dishonesty on the part of the government executive doesn't cause mass uproar......

Bush Administration Lied 935 Times About Iraq Before Invasion: Study
January 25, 2008 · 2 Comments

General Petraeus and President Bush enjoying themselves in Iraq
MTV News Jan 23, 2008
President cited as most frequent liar, with 259 false statements about weapons of mass destruction and more.
By Gil Kaufman
For years, the Bush administration has faced charges that it bent the truth or flat-out misled the public about Iraq’s alleged stockpile of weapons of mass destruction in the lead-up to the 2003 invasion of the country. Now, a study by two nonprofit journalism organizations claims that President Bush and top officials in his administration issued nearly 1,000 false statements about the security threat posed by Iraq in the wake of 9/11.

and then there's the diana thing.......

Diana said, ‘they are plotting to get rid of me’
January 16, 2008 · 1 Comment
Telegraph Jan 16, 2008
By Gordon Rayner
Diana, Princess of Wales told her solicitors of a plot to tamper with her car so it would crash and “get rid of her” or leave her “unbalanced”, the inquest into her death heard.

Sometimes I feel like I'm one of very few people in this town who walks around with his eyes open....it's pretty lonely until you realise that it might just be a gift that everyone else hasn't yet figured out that they have. It's sitting there in front of them eith sparkly wrapping paper on and a tag saying "with love". Because they're not looking they can't see it....

Me and Sally are convinced that something astonishing is soon to come.........a major shift in how we understand the world and how we relate to eachother as human beings instead of "other people". I'm convinced that if it is possible to solve the most challenging question facing us all then the rest would merely fade into absurdity and nothingness. I don't want to risk sounding like another "David Koresh" (did he really do what they said he did?) but the end of the world is coming...the difference is that I think it's worth celebrating......

The first of many.........

2008-02-02T21:31:00.000Z

I mean this to be an avenue for positive, constructive thinking and debate so look away now if positive ain't your bag! The truth about my existence and the reason i'm alive i believe to be soon to come in my experience of this world.........my counsellor recently asked me what i thought my legacy would be. I was so busy ranting that i didn't reply. Maybe this is a step on the way to figuring out what that may be....

Describing my life as extraordinary may seem pig-headed but it is just that. The things that have happened to me in my life I used to always view as unfortunate yet that has been shown to me to not be the case. I say "shown" yet know not by whom or what. I constantly struggle with my mind in the hope that one day I will be able to put it down, thank it for all it's help so far and move on. I dont know where i'm going, only that i'm going. I know that I would prefer it if my mind didn't come with me.......