Full circle?

I have been questioning lately my motives for doing the things I do all day long. It has brought me here. I feel as though I have come full circle in my understanding of myself and the world around me. I now desire to play this grand game of life with a focus on my strengths and ambitions and recognition of my failures, resentments, regrets, weaknesses and mistakes.

I have come to see that the path of truth, integrity and wholeness is a singular path in that it cannot be shared with another in the same way we might share food. These concepts are not describing anything physical. The sharing is of another realm possibly imperceptible to what we call our senses.

The focus of my words today is one of self-awareness. I seek to make whole my divided self and simultaneously make whole the world around me. I owe a huge amount of my understanding to people like David Icke, Michael Tsarion, Bill Hicks and many more countless souls whose names I cannot remember whose words have helped me be inspired, guided and re-assured that a deep and sublime creative and destructive force is at work throughout the cosmos that is omnipotent and omnipresent.

I now see these people as a part of the global psyche aching to be free of the constraints of the self-imposed slavery to collectivist mentalities and misinformed, fear based paradigms we have subjected it to.

Constantly I try to change things around me. I began this blog with a burning desire to change something, anything that could contribute to a revival from what I saw as decay in humanity. However many of my words carried all manner of negative emotion. I see that now.

Once I learned more about the Leviathan of parties interested in nothing more than encouraging me to foster and sow in myself a hatred of myself and humanity I began to see a solution.

The more I focus the light of change inside the more I am rewarded by what I call Great Mother in magical moments of my life. This time that I live in is amazing. The very fact that I am alive against so many odds is amazing.

I feel that the human race is on the brink of turmoil on the scale that dwarfs anything previously experienced by living generations. I also believe that the each of us on this planet has a chance to contribute to what is to come. The big question is what do we choose to contribute?