Existence

With all of the issues I like to think about, the most intriguing to me is my own existence. I find it astonishing that I am even here - let alone that I am lucky to have a wonderful girlfriend and a loving family. It may not seem like it from the outside, but I believe us both to be on the verge of carving a true and just existence out of the corrupt society that we live in. One that may cause offense to some and dismay to others - but to those who truly love and respect us our motives and desires for being brave enough to do it will become clear in time. Bob Dylan said that if you wanna live outside the law, you have to be honest.

What is this "I" that "I" speak of? I don't think it is God. But I don't believe it to be my self because I believe the majority are anything but themselves. I genuinely think that I walk amongst a whole society that is slowly going insane - more than it is already. The speed of this growth of insanity is growing, accelerating. I am not the only one becoming clear on the society I live in. Whole droves of people are awaking around the world to a point of view that the entire planet is a living organic system. That it is impossible to isolate oneself in any way absolutely from this system. The more we attempt to do this, the more the system violently reacts and slowly self destructs. This destruction we experience as stress, disease, war, poverty, environmental disaster and many other conditions. Whether we like to think about it in this country or not, what I have just described is experienced daily by the overwhelming majority of the people on this planet. I am lucky enough to be able to study and understand my ability to help to change this. Something that the majority of people in the world do not have the power to do.

The science is in. The latest conclusions I have read and watched from the physics and cosmology community is that the distance we observe between each and every particle in existence is an illusion. A stunning discovery if you ask me. What am I on about?

Well, this is the news: Absolutely everything in this universe can be found within one small part of it. The whole is reflected in the parts. In this context, the universe can be held in the palm of your hand. It already is. You see, the Universe is holographic. This means, amongst many things, that no matter how small you cut the universe up through observation and measurement, the infinite possibilities contained in the part you are viewing mirror those of the entire system - and vice versa.
Astonishing and confusing, I know. This is the very basis of physics. If you can understand how the particles that make up galaxies are made and behave, then you can make accurate predictions about clouds - as they have the same basic structure and ingredients. What follows this comes from the Unified field theory in part - something that Einstein aspired to but never reached. The theory concludes that the entire universe is intricately and infinitely interconnected through a field that can only be described as consciousness. Thus it is consciousness that lies at the heart of every action, intention, thought, emotion, being, particle, mountain and river. The entire system is alive. Alive with what? A universal intelligence far beyond what we can comprehend thinking only in the third dimension.

This system can be observed through the behavior of fractals. Fractals, in my view, are the mathematical description of the holographic nature of the universe that I am talking about. This universe's basic nature is absolute potential - pure potentiality. It is this potential that is the field, nature and mind of god. The universal intelligence. And the more we try to diverge from it the more suffering we experience. It is important to note that on the level of universal intelligence everything is allowed to happen. Nothing can be interpreted as good or bad. Therefore through our continual changing of the hologram that we are a part of through thought, intention and action we are all contributing positively and negatively to the very universe and reality that we experience as life. Does this mean that everything I do and think changes the world that I see? Of course it does! When you instruct your body to take you to a place where you can obtain physical money you consciously change your environment through what the layman would call moving. Do you not, after a period of time, end up looking at a cash point? The fact that this happens automatically and daily should not negate from it's sublime divinity. The movement originated in thought but manifested as physical reality! Despite the time delay - which I'll try and cover later, because time is important.

The fact that you can access an ATM is not usually viewed as a divine act. But I think it is. If you follow this line of thought to its conclusion it causes even bigger questions. What has this got to do with my existence? Read on.....

The ancients understood the idea that the nature of time is cyclical. But time is merely a consideration. Is it not then the conscious experience that performs this consideration not also cyclical itself? The maya thought so. The long count calendar tracked exactly this - consciousness. Though these cycles begin and end, each cycle has no physical distinction from the other. Ages do not begin and end with physical separation. The separation is one of a mental consideration for our numerical, linear benefit. One of these cycles is what our calendars measure. Is time then not really just another word for mind? As it is just a consideration of experience? Further, I contend that time cannot be gauged without movement. So time requires movement to be measured. We have seen earlier that everything originates in the mind - including movement.

Now, we think of time as having 3 stages; past, present and future. Although these stages are spoken of and accepted as fact, they are anything but. Like time itself, they are considerations. You consider that one event has already happened, so it is in the past. Something happening right now, like you reading these words, is considered as the present and the words you have not read as the future. But this system is in constant flux. The words you are reading, even as you read them are future words that have become the present, yet as you read them they become the past. The march of this "time" is constant and quick, second, by second. Moment by moment you think you are experiencing a present that was the future , is now the present , or is it now the past? But where do you draw the line? Can you?

I do not think that you can distinguish between the two. For one very good reason. Absolutely everything you experience you experience in the present. Not the past or the future. The future becomes the present that you experience. You don't ever experience the future as the future because the very consideration of it separates it from the present by definition. Likewise, you make references to the past having already experienced it in the present. So we experience all three in the present but refer to them as past and future as a consideration. Consideration requires the use of the mind. The mind is like a software program that works abstractly. I like to think of abstractly meaning imaginary. It is easier to conceive in your mind that the mind is really your imagination combined with your memories of your experience. I once read that your brain processes 4 billion pieces of information every second and that we are only aware of around 200 of these. A minuscule amount. The mind is doing things we struggle to comprehend. It manages your experience second by second, moment by moment. Making new memories, new plans, processing random thoughts and feelings. It is unimaginably complex and sophisticated. Is my mind the "I"? The centre of my existence?